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myoo.... sad tom :( sadie just called to say she wasnt gonna sleep over after all :( oh well, its fine, i just got all excited to see her, but i wasnt gonna make a big deal out of it cause thats kinda one of the reasons we broke up, me wanting to much of her time and her wanting more time with her friends.... but im fine and i understand, just kidna sucks. Anyways, today was pretty good, me and sadie watched momento and ate yummy pizza. It was good to be able to hold her again and stuff... it was odd cause i didnt know what i was allowed to do and all.... oh well, thatll figure itself out soon. *ponder* what am i gonna do tonight now. I dont really feel like sleeping much. I have to wait up for a while anyways cause sadie said shed call later and i dont wanna miss that. I love her so much. thats the problem is that i could spend all of my time with her and be perfectly happy, and she just doesnt want to do that (understandably). im sure ill get used to it pretty soon tho. She promised me a sleep over soon, but i kinda doubt thatll happen anytime coming up. this weekend is fully out cause of acts and skiing, and i bet the next one is too cause of skiing and paintball, or just skiing. :/ oh well, im not gonna think about it anymore cause ill just get upset and i shouldnt. this week is gonna suck, i gotta study like nonstop for the acts which i have on both wednesday and saturday... im not very excited. FUCK! that means i probobly wont get to see sadie again until at least monday! damn... eh, its good for us to be apart i guess. *sigh* im getting moody. I am probobly hella sleep deprived, but im not going to bed. i refuse. damnit, distraction time, counterstike calls me!