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ok, so not really mad, whoever said that anger was the precursor to sorrow definetely was right as always. Basically i came to the realization tonight that my world really sucks and i hate it.
im unofficially falling out w/ a lot of friends. so that really sucks
I HATE! (emphasis on hate ( and i am not one to hate anything) ) school! like just about everything about it. I hate it! i think the only possible thing i might like would be calc maybe. possibly choir too, but thats just stressing me out at the moment.
And my one possible hope for hapiness died shortly after realizing all this. Of course, it came with many layers of *trying not to hurt you* padding on it, but the message was the same and perfectly clear.
Any of these events would have been tolerable on their own or even 2 at a time. But tonight, they all jumped on me, and the camels back just broke.
emotional state: closest ive come to seriously crying since fall.
if you do care and want to help me, please dont sympathize or pity. that normally doesnt do well w/ me. just be yourself, possibly give a tiny bit of extra attention, or just make me feel good.
now off to stare blankly at my vocab note cards......
im unofficially falling out w/ a lot of friends. so that really sucks
I HATE! (emphasis on hate ( and i am not one to hate anything) ) school! like just about everything about it. I hate it! i think the only possible thing i might like would be calc maybe. possibly choir too, but thats just stressing me out at the moment.
And my one possible hope for hapiness died shortly after realizing all this. Of course, it came with many layers of *trying not to hurt you* padding on it, but the message was the same and perfectly clear.
Any of these events would have been tolerable on their own or even 2 at a time. But tonight, they all jumped on me, and the camels back just broke.
emotional state: closest ive come to seriously crying since fall.
if you do care and want to help me, please dont sympathize or pity. that normally doesnt do well w/ me. just be yourself, possibly give a tiny bit of extra attention, or just make me feel good.
now off to stare blankly at my vocab note cards......