Letter to a Lost Love
Recently you have been on my mind. While I am not really sure why, I do wish I could we could talk. It seems there are things that we never really got the chance to say to each other. I want you to know that I always wanted you to be happy. I don't know if you ever really believed that, but it is the truth. The whole time we dated I wanted to do things right for you. I know I had expectations for you too, but I really thought that we would be a good match and that we could help each other be better; that the sum would be more than the parts. I wanted to so badly to be everything that you wanted and needed. Sometimes I think that tried so hard to convince you that I was right for you that I never really stopped to consider if you were right for me. It was such a logical fit in my mind. We made so much sense to me that, despite the struggles, it never really occurred to me to question the thought of us. At the end, all I wanted to hear you say was that you wanted the same things. And then I heard my mom say something that changed everything. She told me that I needed to come to the place where my heart and my head could agree. And I realized that at the end of the day, you just didn't want me. And all the fighting started to make sense. I wanted you to want me - I was fighting for your affection - but I couldn't make you love me. And I didn't want to make you love me, I wanted you to choose to love me, to choose me. Once I realized this I found that place my mother was talking about. As hard as it was to let go, I finally knew that letting go was the only way either one of us was going to find what we did want.
I used to think that our time together was wasted, and I still think that I made a lot of mistakes. But I no longer have any ill feelings and now I also know that our time together was what made my life what it is. I have a husband who cares for me. He respects my mind and my talents and encourages me to excel. We bring out the best in each other and inspire each other to do better. We have a beautiful daughter who makes life infinitely more exciting and full. And we are happy.
And I pray that you are too; I still want you to be happy and truly hope that you are. You used to tell me that you were afraid that we would get married and then you find someone that you wanted more. I hope you have found that someone. Someone who loves and respects you deeply and brings out the best in you. Someone that you want more than anyone.
I don't know if you will ever read this, but I hope that someday you do. I want you to know that I think of you with fondness and that I do hope we see each other again some day. We used to be such good friends. We had a lot of fun together and made a lot of good memories. I would love to know how you are and what you are doing. I loved you once.
I used to think that our time together was wasted, and I still think that I made a lot of mistakes. But I no longer have any ill feelings and now I also know that our time together was what made my life what it is. I have a husband who cares for me. He respects my mind and my talents and encourages me to excel. We bring out the best in each other and inspire each other to do better. We have a beautiful daughter who makes life infinitely more exciting and full. And we are happy.
And I pray that you are too; I still want you to be happy and truly hope that you are. You used to tell me that you were afraid that we would get married and then you find someone that you wanted more. I hope you have found that someone. Someone who loves and respects you deeply and brings out the best in you. Someone that you want more than anyone.
I don't know if you will ever read this, but I hope that someday you do. I want you to know that I think of you with fondness and that I do hope we see each other again some day. We used to be such good friends. We had a lot of fun together and made a lot of good memories. I would love to know how you are and what you are doing. I loved you once.