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I started my new smiley pills today.
Immediately after swallowing the pill I got bad feelings about it, brought up the instructions sheet and started reading. I don't have a penis, so I won't get impotent, but that aside I will become maniac, hallucinate and throw up amongst other things. I was doubtful at first, I hardly ever get side effects from antidepressants, but... ugh, it's been three hours and my head aches, my face itches and my stomach makes funny noises. Oh right, I also have this sudden feeling of weakness in my jaws and my neck, quite like I was really, really tired, and I'm randomly shaking.
I'm also paranoid about the hallucination stuff, I'm already seeing and hearing things and I don't know if it's due to the medication or the paranoia, probably both.
In worst case I'll end up in coma. If I do, well, that's sad, the first person to get worried is my girlfriend who's coming over on saturday.
Wonderful.
I'm actually looking forwards to that mania phase. I hope I get it. I really, really hope I get it. I felt so great last time I got mania from starting medication, I sat on floor in the hospiorphanboardingschoolwhateveritwas and laughed at the ceiling for an hour because everything was so lovely and great and I was so cool and I had so much fun. It lasted for a good month, after which I returned on the surface of Planet Earth.
It was funnnnn. Gah.
With my luck, the only thing that results from my doctor bluntly skipping from 25mg straight to 50mg for some strange reason is this headache, itching and stomach sickness, and I won't get any lulz at all.
Sigh.
And oh, right, the paranoia and the hallucinations. I'm so looking towards that as I'm ALREADY dropping dead from fearing the dead lady who resides in my living room every time I'm out of here.
She's tall, has hair a bit over her shoulders, grey skin and dark blueish grey lips, dressed in a long grey drag, has thin legs and rather large feet and hands. Anorectic build, but not quite a skeleton yet.
You know, I would say I'm psychotic if I wasn't clearly able to laugh at my delusions.
Head aches. Only two painkillers left and I'm about to enter the worst time of the month. Can't wait to throw up in overwhelming pain while drooling and dying in my bed because I can't breathe.
While hallucinating and laughing uncontrollably.
I'm gonna enjoy the coming week...
Immediately after swallowing the pill I got bad feelings about it, brought up the instructions sheet and started reading. I don't have a penis, so I won't get impotent, but that aside I will become maniac, hallucinate and throw up amongst other things. I was doubtful at first, I hardly ever get side effects from antidepressants, but... ugh, it's been three hours and my head aches, my face itches and my stomach makes funny noises. Oh right, I also have this sudden feeling of weakness in my jaws and my neck, quite like I was really, really tired, and I'm randomly shaking.
I'm also paranoid about the hallucination stuff, I'm already seeing and hearing things and I don't know if it's due to the medication or the paranoia, probably both.
In worst case I'll end up in coma. If I do, well, that's sad, the first person to get worried is my girlfriend who's coming over on saturday.
Wonderful.
I'm actually looking forwards to that mania phase. I hope I get it. I really, really hope I get it. I felt so great last time I got mania from starting medication, I sat on floor in the hospiorphanboardingschoolwhateveritwas and laughed at the ceiling for an hour because everything was so lovely and great and I was so cool and I had so much fun. It lasted for a good month, after which I returned on the surface of Planet Earth.
It was funnnnn. Gah.
With my luck, the only thing that results from my doctor bluntly skipping from 25mg straight to 50mg for some strange reason is this headache, itching and stomach sickness, and I won't get any lulz at all.
Sigh.
And oh, right, the paranoia and the hallucinations. I'm so looking towards that as I'm ALREADY dropping dead from fearing the dead lady who resides in my living room every time I'm out of here.
She's tall, has hair a bit over her shoulders, grey skin and dark blueish grey lips, dressed in a long grey drag, has thin legs and rather large feet and hands. Anorectic build, but not quite a skeleton yet.
You know, I would say I'm psychotic if I wasn't clearly able to laugh at my delusions.
Head aches. Only two painkillers left and I'm about to enter the worst time of the month. Can't wait to throw up in overwhelming pain while drooling and dying in my bed because I can't breathe.
While hallucinating and laughing uncontrollably.
I'm gonna enjoy the coming week...