Why?

[tom_e_scott]

Why does somewhere over the rainbow not exist? Why have all the colors fallen from the sky? Why does it hurt so much to watch so much happiness, and why does happiness make me feel like a selfish prick? Sometimes I dream that I'm surrounded by beauty and light again. And then I wake up, and I'm back in Kansas. Black and white and forgotten

Comments

[dom_monaghan]

Hey Tomser. Where are you (and more precisely why are you not in New York)? I want to go out for tea with you.

I love you, Lobster boy.

[tom_e_scott]

Hey Dom. I'm... somewhere. Hidden from the world (that may very well be New York). I want to go out for tea with you too, even though I stopped drinking tea.

I love you too, (enter-witty-comeback-here.)

I ran away from home.

[dom_monaghan]

You stopped drinking tea? Alright, I'll even drink coffee for you. Call me, okay?

<3

Why?

[tom_e_scott]

I stopped drinking tea... because it hurts. I will, when I find my voice again.

<3

I'm scared.

[dom_monaghan]

Oh, Tom. I could call you instead, and sing you sweet lullabyes and whisper words to help, and you won't have to do anything at all but listen and try to believe.

Of what, Love?

[tom_e_scott]

Your life means much more than mine does. You don't need to by my nanny, Dommie.

Home.

[dom_monaghan]

I'm not trying to be your nanny, Tom, I'm trying to be your friend. No one's life means anything more than anyone elses.

When did that start?

[tom_e_scott]

Excuse my hostilities. Sometimes I forget that I don't have to cater to make everyone else happy when I'm not at work.

I don't know. Before I left?

[dom_monaghan]

Forgiven and forgotten. Things not going so well in the work front? I'ma track you down in a few minutes, you know.

Well, I'd gathered that much.

[tom_e_scott]

Wonderful Dominic on the case. No front is going well, no back exists. That doesn't make sense, please strike it from the records.

I don't know. I really don't.

[dom_monaghan]

Jeffrey returns! Nay, it made perfect sense, Tom.

It's okay. D'you want to talk about what's happening?

[tom_e_scott]

Did it really? Huh. I seem to be very profound when I don't sleep.

I... dunno. All of this started when I went for a walk to clear my head. Which lead to went for a cab ride. Which led to went for a... fly.

I think I'm going fucking crazy.

[dom_monaghan]

That or I just understand profoundly when I don't sleep?

So, does Billy know at all where you are?

Confusion doesn't equal crazy.

[tom_e_scott]

So we're just a couple of profound awake guys huh?

No. Maybe he hasn't noticed I'm gone yet. I don't know.

Then I'm going out of my mind.

[dom_monaghan]

Aye, hence the needing to get coffee. We can go to one of those.. atmospheric hippy places and read poetry and drink lattes and remark on the world.

How long ago did you leave?

Why do you think that?

[tom_e_scott]

We'd be Viggo.

Couple weeks back.

Because I can't think straight. I can't even think in zig-zags. I can't think anymore.