gone going gone
So my dad should be here in about an hour or so ... maybe less. Then we will be packing up my clothes, going to court, and then going home. The whole court thing sounds scary, but its really because I have parking tickets and well thats just lame, but whatever.
I'm nervous. I'm so nervous. I'm afraid that I'm going to hate home just as much as I hate it here right now, I'm afraid that I'm just going to hate things because I'm just upset with too much stuff. I know I can't go home with that mindset though and I'm going to try not to.
For starters, I love lifegaurding. I can't wait to be back at the park, doing the random daily things I do, which I'm sure will fill quite a few lj entries about some funny experience or save that I made while working. I miss 12 hour days. I miss working. So that all sounds like its going to be good.
I love the beach and the dunes and hiking and big bodies of water.
I love Siobhan. Even though she won't be there the whole summer, I will get to spend a good chunk of time with her before she goes to New Zealand until school starts again. I love her faimily, and she's just the best friend a boy could ask for.
Katie will be close and in chicago which will give me a chance to see her and get out of town now and again. Katie is my tickle, blankie, teddy, bobo,... whatever you have that reminds you of childhood that you think is like the answer to all evil - or you did at one point - katie is that. I used to have a bear, but my dog ate its face off.
Meghan, Kate and Katherine and Lindsey will all be making stops or stays in VI so that will be great to see them too. Thinking and writing about all of this makes the situation seem a lot better.
Now to do justice - I am going to miss being here. As much as I need/want to leave, I'm going to miss it so much.
Anthony. There's not much that needs to be said here that hasn't already been discussed. Thanks for listening, and being a friend, and being honest. It means a lot. So yeah, thanks.
Erin. If you only knew how much I love you.. haha. I love your little glances across the room that just make me bust up laughing. I like having conversations with you about people around us right in front of them - but its too loud for anyone to hear what we're saying. I think you're an outstanding person and I'm so glad that I've been able to spend time with you this year/summer.
Ellen. It's crazy that I've known ellen since the first days I was here at IU. I remember so many fun times with you, and I love that I always feel like you're the same girl from the floor below me that is just spunky and interesting and an absolute hoot to be around.
Matt. Though I'm not particularly close to Stubbs, I always have so much fun with him. Whenever people are roaming around and I get left alone in a room with matt, I hardly notice. We find something funny to talk about or something like a vagina odor commercial comes on and we laugh needlessly about it for far longer than necessary but it is always a fun fun time.
Everyone else who I hang out with and enjoy spending my time with, I will miss.. a lot. But its not like I'm leaving forever, or even for the entire summer... I'm actually just visiting home. Until I get a diploma, I'm going to be calling Bloomington my home because though its been hard, being here has made me face so much, figure out so many things about myself, and confront so much that is so easy to just ignore.
So thanks, again. To my friends.
People have the right to fly
And will when it gets compromised
Their hearts say "Move along"
Their minds say "Gotcha heart"
Let's move it along
And airports, see it all the time
Where someone's last goodbye
Blends in with someone's sigh
Cause someone's coming home
In hand, a single rose
That's the way this wheel keeps working now
That's the way this wheel keeps working now
And I won't be the last
No I won't be the last, to love her
You can't build a house of leaves
And live like it's an evergreen
It's just a season thing
It's just this thing that seasons do
And that's the way this wheel keeps working now
That's the way this wheel keeps working now
And you won't be the first
No you won't be the first, to love me
You can find me, if you ever want to give
I'll be around the bend
I'll be around the bend
I'll be around, I'll be around
And if you never stop when you wave goodbye
You just might find if you give it time
You will wave hello again
You just might wave hello again
And that's the way this wheel keeps working now
That's the way this wheel keeps working now
You can't love too much, one part of it
I believe that my life's gonna see
The love I give return to me
I believe that my life's gonna see yeah
The love I give return to me.
I believe that my life's gonna see the love I give
Return to me...
I'm nervous. I'm so nervous. I'm afraid that I'm going to hate home just as much as I hate it here right now, I'm afraid that I'm just going to hate things because I'm just upset with too much stuff. I know I can't go home with that mindset though and I'm going to try not to.
For starters, I love lifegaurding. I can't wait to be back at the park, doing the random daily things I do, which I'm sure will fill quite a few lj entries about some funny experience or save that I made while working. I miss 12 hour days. I miss working. So that all sounds like its going to be good.
I love the beach and the dunes and hiking and big bodies of water.
I love Siobhan. Even though she won't be there the whole summer, I will get to spend a good chunk of time with her before she goes to New Zealand until school starts again. I love her faimily, and she's just the best friend a boy could ask for.
Katie will be close and in chicago which will give me a chance to see her and get out of town now and again. Katie is my tickle, blankie, teddy, bobo,... whatever you have that reminds you of childhood that you think is like the answer to all evil - or you did at one point - katie is that. I used to have a bear, but my dog ate its face off.
Meghan, Kate and Katherine and Lindsey will all be making stops or stays in VI so that will be great to see them too. Thinking and writing about all of this makes the situation seem a lot better.
Now to do justice - I am going to miss being here. As much as I need/want to leave, I'm going to miss it so much.
Anthony. There's not much that needs to be said here that hasn't already been discussed. Thanks for listening, and being a friend, and being honest. It means a lot. So yeah, thanks.
Erin. If you only knew how much I love you.. haha. I love your little glances across the room that just make me bust up laughing. I like having conversations with you about people around us right in front of them - but its too loud for anyone to hear what we're saying. I think you're an outstanding person and I'm so glad that I've been able to spend time with you this year/summer.
Ellen. It's crazy that I've known ellen since the first days I was here at IU. I remember so many fun times with you, and I love that I always feel like you're the same girl from the floor below me that is just spunky and interesting and an absolute hoot to be around.
Matt. Though I'm not particularly close to Stubbs, I always have so much fun with him. Whenever people are roaming around and I get left alone in a room with matt, I hardly notice. We find something funny to talk about or something like a vagina odor commercial comes on and we laugh needlessly about it for far longer than necessary but it is always a fun fun time.
Everyone else who I hang out with and enjoy spending my time with, I will miss.. a lot. But its not like I'm leaving forever, or even for the entire summer... I'm actually just visiting home. Until I get a diploma, I'm going to be calling Bloomington my home because though its been hard, being here has made me face so much, figure out so many things about myself, and confront so much that is so easy to just ignore.
So thanks, again. To my friends.
People have the right to fly
And will when it gets compromised
Their hearts say "Move along"
Their minds say "Gotcha heart"
Let's move it along
And airports, see it all the time
Where someone's last goodbye
Blends in with someone's sigh
Cause someone's coming home
In hand, a single rose
That's the way this wheel keeps working now
That's the way this wheel keeps working now
And I won't be the last
No I won't be the last, to love her
You can't build a house of leaves
And live like it's an evergreen
It's just a season thing
It's just this thing that seasons do
And that's the way this wheel keeps working now
That's the way this wheel keeps working now
And you won't be the first
No you won't be the first, to love me
You can find me, if you ever want to give
I'll be around the bend
I'll be around the bend
I'll be around, I'll be around
And if you never stop when you wave goodbye
You just might find if you give it time
You will wave hello again
You just might wave hello again
And that's the way this wheel keeps working now
That's the way this wheel keeps working now
You can't love too much, one part of it
I believe that my life's gonna see
The love I give return to me
I believe that my life's gonna see yeah
The love I give return to me.
I believe that my life's gonna see the love I give
Return to me...