it ain't over 'till i say it's over...
arrrrrgghh... this is not just a "journal".
i am now declaring it to be the official space for my rants and raves...
i kept on thinking of a great thesis topic but hell, i cannot think of any.
i realized that i am actually afraid to graduate...abnormal, huh? the fact that i wouldnt be able to earn more than what i am spending now just dawned on me a few days ago.
lately, i have been pressuring myself to study and do my papers ahead of time but the pressure that i have imposed on myself is killing me... im not used to pressuring myself, or to be pressured by anybody, for that matter. i work if and when i want to, yeah that is the normal me.
i do better when i cram... i was able to survive my HS days even if i was a crammer, and hopefully my college days too... *crosses her patrick fingers*
i was supposed to report in my psych101 class today but unfortunately, i left my damn notes and report flow in my unit.. kung mamalasin ka nga naman! to think that i was not able to sleep because i did my paper the night before. aaarrrgghhhh! :( to add to that, i was like super paranoid of what Aris (winner's crazy friend) might do that night because he was threatening winner that he'd burn the latter's house down if he doesn't let him in. i think he's really gone bonkers plus the fact that he was drunk! anyway, *tolyne* i dont mind if he'd really burn the guy, he deserves it. he's an asshole!
on a lighter note: i was really worried about my report so i PRAYED (it helps! believe me!) to God. then voila! i wasnt called to report, hehehe... Malakas ako kay Lord! +teehee+...
it all boils down to our faith in HIM. i believe that he is watching over me. i love my life... hehehe^-^