sometimes the only bright spot

[tolldog]

sometimes the only bright spot in your life is the glare from the sun beating down on your back...

i don't have the words yet
not the ones i need to say
i had words before
that were ready
so close to being said
some in anger
some in fear
some in love
but i clenched my teeth
and kept them from escaping
and now
now i have nothing to say
i don't have those words
nothing to fill this vacancy
this empty void between us
this chasm we created by pulling so far apart
i have nothing to fill this hole
nothing to bridge this gap
not yet

as sorrow flows out
and goes down the side
slowly filling the empty ravine
i wonder if i could do more
to make the distance less
but i am out of ideas
and out of words
what a horrible place to be

some day the sun will rise
and no longer blind me
and my dry, parched lips
they will no longer have this bitter taste
and maybe those walls will fall down
and the distance will grow less
and the constant sorrow will go away

but until that day
i must be my own man
and follow my own trails
in this mind numbing silence