Sep 21, 2006 13:55
i had a strange dream the other night.
i will not get into it, but suffice it to say i was not a corporate sell out in my dream.
i woke up feeling so refreshed with the notion of life.
It seems that somewhere along the line i became cynical that any of my ambitions would ever come true. I had all of these fantasies that i would be in some far off place full of adventure, actually making a difference in the world that doesnt involve PA2 forms. But, then somewhere at the core of my existence, i would laugh at the absurdity of it all. Ive had ambitions before that i copped out on. It is that notion that one cant be dissapointed if they dont put too much faith into anything.
I feel so... different. i feel almost like a kid. Im excited about random things now. Its this strange feeling where i feel like i can do anything again. and i havent felt like that in a long time.
So, im going to make somewhere around $17500 this year and I am going to dedicate at least $5000 of it to traveling somewhere really cool and taking photos.