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i guess its true what they say about home being your comfort area and safe haven becuase thats where your family is. Well mine was in maryland. the place that felt like home.
Now i guess its here, but it some form i feel like i lost that concept all together.
and the family part is just so depressing to me. I guess i havent really wanted to deal with it, and i still dont want to/feel ready to, but hopefully when i go to md for nicoles wedding att he end of may, i will be. And ill have to be.
im starting to come to terms with the details its just ashame.
i feel like i know nothing about my dad.
I cant even begin to explain how i dont have a family on my moms side.
and i feel like i dont have a lot of time to figure all this out.
i dont understand why i have bad feelings about this all the time. its like i know something is going to happen to the people i love.
maybe there is a phobia about that.
Now i guess its here, but it some form i feel like i lost that concept all together.
and the family part is just so depressing to me. I guess i havent really wanted to deal with it, and i still dont want to/feel ready to, but hopefully when i go to md for nicoles wedding att he end of may, i will be. And ill have to be.
im starting to come to terms with the details its just ashame.
i feel like i know nothing about my dad.
I cant even begin to explain how i dont have a family on my moms side.
and i feel like i dont have a lot of time to figure all this out.
i dont understand why i have bad feelings about this all the time. its like i know something is going to happen to the people i love.
maybe there is a phobia about that.