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so today was the day of new life.
I have come to the realization that in just 12 short months.. my entire life is going to change.
I am moving out, finally gaining the independence I have longed for for so many years. Becomming my own woman, taking care of myself and growing in so many ways.
I will never see the normal faces again. Well maybe not never, but rarely. The people i have known for 13 plus years wont be around just to say hi to.. Maybe we will keep in touch but probably not, and i think im ok with that. They have all ment so much to me in their own ways and helped me to grow into the young woman i am, but im ready for more. Ready for open spaces and new people and new relationships and maybe love but im not gonna rush that one.
I will be able to vote. This is probably one of the things i am excited for most. Voting is possibly one of the most american things you can do and i have always been so in love with the concept. I love politics and can probably talk you under the table about it and thats what makes me so exicted. I can follow the candidates and their ideas and choose who would represent me best.. i think thats such an awesome idea. i dunno why.. probably because im dumb.
Im just so ready to set off into the world and become who I've always wanted to be. No fronts..Not caution because of what others will think.. i can be a nerd and love social studies and be cool with it.. I can relax and not clean my room because honestly who the fuck cares if your room is clean.. I can travel away from those who have held me back and slowly let go of those who have shown me so much..
and i know eljay is a lame place to say this..but i want to thank Brittany Keeley, for helping me realize the person i want to be.. The best friend i have ever had.. Nothing could replace the 17 years i have spent with this girl and hopefully everything will work out next year and we will be together.. or at least not loose touch..
I sat in antonettes living room tonight and looked through home interior magazines.. and i realized how much i want my own home.. and a family and to be happy and get married and have kids and all that fun stuff..i cant wait to be the soccer mom .. or the football mom or the ballerina mom.. i want kids ( and i want them in about 8 years not today soo boys.. keep it strapped thanks) and i want to care for someone more then myself and have someone love me..
Im so open to life rite now.. so exicted and ready for it all to begin.. just 12 months till im off on my own..making my own plans.. and starting my life.. its such a mind blowing experience .. just a new and exciting concept...
thats all for today.. thanks for reading.. I have grown... i have changed.. im not the little girl i use to be.. Im just waiting for life to begin
HAPPY BIRTHDAY JOE MUNN YOU BIG IDIOT
I have come to the realization that in just 12 short months.. my entire life is going to change.
I am moving out, finally gaining the independence I have longed for for so many years. Becomming my own woman, taking care of myself and growing in so many ways.
I will never see the normal faces again. Well maybe not never, but rarely. The people i have known for 13 plus years wont be around just to say hi to.. Maybe we will keep in touch but probably not, and i think im ok with that. They have all ment so much to me in their own ways and helped me to grow into the young woman i am, but im ready for more. Ready for open spaces and new people and new relationships and maybe love but im not gonna rush that one.
I will be able to vote. This is probably one of the things i am excited for most. Voting is possibly one of the most american things you can do and i have always been so in love with the concept. I love politics and can probably talk you under the table about it and thats what makes me so exicted. I can follow the candidates and their ideas and choose who would represent me best.. i think thats such an awesome idea. i dunno why.. probably because im dumb.
Im just so ready to set off into the world and become who I've always wanted to be. No fronts..Not caution because of what others will think.. i can be a nerd and love social studies and be cool with it.. I can relax and not clean my room because honestly who the fuck cares if your room is clean.. I can travel away from those who have held me back and slowly let go of those who have shown me so much..
and i know eljay is a lame place to say this..but i want to thank Brittany Keeley, for helping me realize the person i want to be.. The best friend i have ever had.. Nothing could replace the 17 years i have spent with this girl and hopefully everything will work out next year and we will be together.. or at least not loose touch..
I sat in antonettes living room tonight and looked through home interior magazines.. and i realized how much i want my own home.. and a family and to be happy and get married and have kids and all that fun stuff..i cant wait to be the soccer mom .. or the football mom or the ballerina mom.. i want kids ( and i want them in about 8 years not today soo boys.. keep it strapped thanks) and i want to care for someone more then myself and have someone love me..
Im so open to life rite now.. so exicted and ready for it all to begin.. just 12 months till im off on my own..making my own plans.. and starting my life.. its such a mind blowing experience .. just a new and exciting concept...
thats all for today.. thanks for reading.. I have grown... i have changed.. im not the little girl i use to be.. Im just waiting for life to begin
HAPPY BIRTHDAY JOE MUNN YOU BIG IDIOT