May 04, 2005 15:45
So.. monday and tuesday I trained this new girl as a hostess.. after an hour I was completely tired of her. All she did was talk about everything that happened to her since she could walk. I couldnt take it. I dont understand at all why girl's have babies so young. She just turned 17 and due to have a baby in December. anyway..
I was laying in my bed this morning. just before i got up to get ready for class.. I over hear my dad, brother, and his friend talking.. and one of them asked my dad this "did she cry?" at that momment i was hurt but at the same time really proud of myself. The reason being.. last night I was sitting in my room watching tv.. my dad is drunk and comes to my door and yells at me to get in the living room so he can talk to me.. so i go its 11pm, im gonna finish this movie and go to bed. He then says "No you're not, you're going to get your ass in here and we are going to talk" So i tell him we can talk later. He refuses tho and continues to tell me right now get in here. So i sit there trying not to cry so he wouldnt know that i was hurt by any of his actions. to show him I wasnt weak.. and he tells me that who do I think I am, a badass or something that cant talk to her father. and i sat there silently until he left from rambling on.
um you cant change how a person feel about something. only the person can change how they feel.