Two posts in one day?
Being bipolar sucks.
And all I really want to do right now is stab a knife right through my wrist. Granted, this will get me sent straight to the hospital all over again, which I am doing my best to avoid doing. But nonetheless, the urge is still there.
And, no matter how hard I try to love my body and love myself and stay... sane, it's just not fucking working. I'm still depressed as hell. I still hate myself. I still think i'm an ugly, hideous beast. Granted, I've done better about eating... normally, but lately all I want to do is starve myself for weeks and self medicate.
At least I'm talking about it?
That's a positive, right?
And all I really want to do right now is stab a knife right through my wrist. Granted, this will get me sent straight to the hospital all over again, which I am doing my best to avoid doing. But nonetheless, the urge is still there.
And, no matter how hard I try to love my body and love myself and stay... sane, it's just not fucking working. I'm still depressed as hell. I still hate myself. I still think i'm an ugly, hideous beast. Granted, I've done better about eating... normally, but lately all I want to do is starve myself for weeks and self medicate.
At least I'm talking about it?
That's a positive, right?