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I feel like just...killing myself.
I don't even have a legit reason...
I'm just in one of those moods. =[
life is great, it just feels so pointless.
I'm a fat fuck who goes to a Catholic school, accomplishes absolutely nothing. I'm getting a job, but only to satisfy my need to material possessions...nothing noble. I'm probably going to go to college, but never graduate and end up with a shite job. I'll never find my soulmate. the only thing that makes me truly happy, my dog, will die in a few years...give it a couple of weeks and I'll be deeply in love with Jordan again and he'll decided he's not interested...again, I'm sure. it's a vicious cycle. he'll like someone else by then, I'll be heartbroken...again. I just don't even feel like anything is worth it. worth waiting to die, worth my attention, worth being this unhappy, only to be more unhappy later in life, I'm sure.
fuck.
I don't even have a legit reason...
I'm just in one of those moods. =[
life is great, it just feels so pointless.
I'm a fat fuck who goes to a Catholic school, accomplishes absolutely nothing. I'm getting a job, but only to satisfy my need to material possessions...nothing noble. I'm probably going to go to college, but never graduate and end up with a shite job. I'll never find my soulmate. the only thing that makes me truly happy, my dog, will die in a few years...give it a couple of weeks and I'll be deeply in love with Jordan again and he'll decided he's not interested...again, I'm sure. it's a vicious cycle. he'll like someone else by then, I'll be heartbroken...again. I just don't even feel like anything is worth it. worth waiting to die, worth my attention, worth being this unhappy, only to be more unhappy later in life, I'm sure.
fuck.