Oct 15, 2006 22:27
i went looking for curtains today.
she says she wants to leave for space. i understand; i want the same. i've become such a mean, ugly man. i'm exhausted and my voice won't turn off.
tomorrow i call a therapist. my hopes are full of confusion but i think my ship is leaving soon.
my dog and i went for a long walk today along the greenbelt. it reminded me how beautiful october is without the drag of the city. maybe it's the cement that broke my heart.
i bought some records. the jam/the gift. the specials/ghosttown single. scientists/heavy metal dub. gang of four/entertainment!
trying to leave the bottle behind and work on my collecting. dub and post-punk might get me through this.