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[tokyoacid]

i wrote the below 6 years ago in february. im posting it here--well, for i dont know why. maybe because the people that read it 6 years ago arent my friends anymore. and the friends i have now didnt know me when i wrote it. or something.

whatever, it is important. here you go.:

maybe ill try and explain

and i dont want anyone commenting-even though comments are turned off i dont want anyone giving me their opinion on this at all

i see myself as a boy
even when i wear cute clothes-i seriously see myself as a boy in drag

when anyone touches my boobs-i hate it-i freak out cause something in my mind tells me i shouldnt have boobs

im tired of my body betraying me
im trying to get skinny
so my boobs will go away as much as they can-and i can hide them better
so my period will stop
i want my hip bones to make the boy-v and i dont want my waist to stand out from my hips

i want to look like a 13 year old boy
cause thats how i feel

its hard for me to have boyfriends-cause they see me as a girl and they want girl friends
besides- i think i drive boys away anyways-cause none of them seem to go out for me
and i cant have girlfriends that well-because well, lesbians want girls too, not girls that see themselves as 13 year old boys

its strange trying to tell anyone this cause they think im weird