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I'm still in love with someone that hasn't been a part of my life day to day for the last 6 months. I don't know if he has truly gotten himself over what we used to have or still thinks about me as much as I do him....but I know I haven't. It's hard to think about them moving on completely, like entirely. No longer even yearning to want your presence. I have someone here who loves to be around me and can almost keep up with me...but it's like I feel like I'm using them. I'm using them for the moment to keep me occupied, yet my mind is waiting and not committing to anything solid. I don't want anything serious, but I'm sure this other person would consider it farther down the road. But I am nont 100% into what I have here and I'm a bit confused. IDK how I would get the answer to this question I can't even word correctly. I feel like I won't get my answer until I'm done with my schooling, but I also feel it will be too late by then. *sigh* I've left myself on a cliff hanger.