Continuing the day....
One thing about livejournal that I wish they had was a blog counter like on myspace. How many views your page gets etc. I always love writing when I know people are actually reading it. Sucks I can't tell anymore, but eh I'm back into writing mode since I have nothing more to put feelings into and confide in.
If we are suppose to be best friends isn't it weird that we are trying to limit contact and communication? Thats why I wonder how we can be such a thing if we do that to make it easier? lol maybe best friends after we spend enough time away from each other to not crave each other and fall right back into our thing. That may take a very long time...it's just weird making conscious decisions to not see someone so that you can slowly ease away or wean off from them.
Work was alright today, I have to go back though for the second half. Man paychecks come this friday. I'm excited to see it and purchase some rims!! hopefully I hope. We'll see....also get the lift. GOt tires and all...I also found someone who would put it on for like $100 compared to this off road place who wanted $400 in labor just to put the kit on! I'm like whoa! So see what happens. I can't wait to go to sleep again tonight....
I'm really pathetic right now. Got invited out tonight...see what kind of mood I am...I need some cheering up and my head filled with crazy ideas that everything is all for the better. Why when bad things happen they are always for the better? lol I guess because it can't get much worse eh.....eh f*ck.
Also was thinking of curiosity, he can see in my side through blogs, but I have no way of seeing his side. I did that on purpose, but then again he's not a very big blogger about things liek this so I guess I'm not missing out. It's just sometimes reassuring of comfortable to still atleast be able to read about the others day or what not just from that curiousity stand point and it allows you to get an idea of what I've been up to etc....I'm trying to stay oblivious....but hate it lmao. But I shouldn't be worried or concerned with what goes on in his life now....right? stupid catch 22. I can't help it, I just wonder. It may be boring or it may get interesting hell if I know. But I have to go back to work, hopefully get a go home so I can go work out and shower. I want my own speed bag lol I'vebeen craving to just go buck nutty on one lately. It would probably knock me out before I get the rhythm down. *Sigh* I guess I shouldn't be too hard on myself for taking this not so well. I mean now I see why those who have been through it say it's not easy. Gees nothing in life is easy, and all the good shit you wanna eat will kill you in the end. Damn it all...I'm out.
If we are suppose to be best friends isn't it weird that we are trying to limit contact and communication? Thats why I wonder how we can be such a thing if we do that to make it easier? lol maybe best friends after we spend enough time away from each other to not crave each other and fall right back into our thing. That may take a very long time...it's just weird making conscious decisions to not see someone so that you can slowly ease away or wean off from them.
Work was alright today, I have to go back though for the second half. Man paychecks come this friday. I'm excited to see it and purchase some rims!! hopefully I hope. We'll see....also get the lift. GOt tires and all...I also found someone who would put it on for like $100 compared to this off road place who wanted $400 in labor just to put the kit on! I'm like whoa! So see what happens. I can't wait to go to sleep again tonight....
I'm really pathetic right now. Got invited out tonight...see what kind of mood I am...I need some cheering up and my head filled with crazy ideas that everything is all for the better. Why when bad things happen they are always for the better? lol I guess because it can't get much worse eh.....eh f*ck.
Also was thinking of curiosity, he can see in my side through blogs, but I have no way of seeing his side. I did that on purpose, but then again he's not a very big blogger about things liek this so I guess I'm not missing out. It's just sometimes reassuring of comfortable to still atleast be able to read about the others day or what not just from that curiousity stand point and it allows you to get an idea of what I've been up to etc....I'm trying to stay oblivious....but hate it lmao. But I shouldn't be worried or concerned with what goes on in his life now....right? stupid catch 22. I can't help it, I just wonder. It may be boring or it may get interesting hell if I know. But I have to go back to work, hopefully get a go home so I can go work out and shower. I want my own speed bag lol I'vebeen craving to just go buck nutty on one lately. It would probably knock me out before I get the rhythm down. *Sigh* I guess I shouldn't be too hard on myself for taking this not so well. I mean now I see why those who have been through it say it's not easy. Gees nothing in life is easy, and all the good shit you wanna eat will kill you in the end. Damn it all...I'm out.