A Summer to Remember
Tonight, I had a girls night with Boo. We watched Sex and the City while some drunk friend of her boyfriend's called wanting to talk to me.That was partially my fault since I did play a game and talked to him for a bit with my best sexy voice haha. But nontheless, once I said goodbye to her, I felt really sad. This would be the last time I see her until I come back home for winter break.
As the summer comes to an end, I find myself suddenly feeling really sentimental about things. At first, I thought it was because I still wasn't sure on whether or not I was ready to go back to school. After all the trouble that went on the previous year, I'm still a little hesitant about going back. But now I don't feel exactly that way. This summer has definately been mind changing for me in even the simplest ways. I've learned a lot about life, relationships, and people. Perhaps this is my way of recovering from all the drama because now I feel like I've finally opened my mind to things that I never really noticed before.
First of all, not everything can sad for the worst. No, sometimes things can be sad for the best...I'm still not quite sure if that made any sense or not. But anyway, I know that one of my closet friendships is starting to die. At first I thought this was a horrible thing, but now I'm beginning to realize that this is probably for the better. As time changes, people also change. And sometimes, things fall apart that is beyond our control. But this is one of those disasters that will bloom into something better, I think. That's why I'm not doing anything and allowing nature to follow its course. Mama Bird, I love you, but I think it's time that we slowly go our own ways now. I can no longer help you in the ways that you need help. But I'm happy to know that you've found someone who can. And I will do the same for myself.
The second thing is that I've have seen things that I never saw before in other people. This has allowed me to become even closer to them. I used to complain and whine all the time about how I felt as if I would never find those ever lasting friendships. The ones where you know that you'll keep in touch with that person forever, no matter what. I have been so ignorant to my own desires. I admit. Some of the people that I saw myself have those friendships with didn't feel the same way as me. But now I'm paying more attention to others and not just myself. There are people who want that kind of friendship with me, yet I never paid any attention to them. That's why I'm trying to be less picky and more open. Besides, how could I ever get far by being closed up? The ironic part is that I kinda always thought I was an open person. There are still things that I need to learn about myself.
Yes, this summer has definately been something. Aside from Mama Bird's B-Day party, hanging out all the time with Pho and getting closer to him, the tornado disaster, and many other things, I have certainly learned a lot. Now, I'm beginning to think that I am ready to head back to school. A new year means new things and people to encounter.
I think the child within me grew up just a little today.
As the summer comes to an end, I find myself suddenly feeling really sentimental about things. At first, I thought it was because I still wasn't sure on whether or not I was ready to go back to school. After all the trouble that went on the previous year, I'm still a little hesitant about going back. But now I don't feel exactly that way. This summer has definately been mind changing for me in even the simplest ways. I've learned a lot about life, relationships, and people. Perhaps this is my way of recovering from all the drama because now I feel like I've finally opened my mind to things that I never really noticed before.
First of all, not everything can sad for the worst. No, sometimes things can be sad for the best...I'm still not quite sure if that made any sense or not. But anyway, I know that one of my closet friendships is starting to die. At first I thought this was a horrible thing, but now I'm beginning to realize that this is probably for the better. As time changes, people also change. And sometimes, things fall apart that is beyond our control. But this is one of those disasters that will bloom into something better, I think. That's why I'm not doing anything and allowing nature to follow its course. Mama Bird, I love you, but I think it's time that we slowly go our own ways now. I can no longer help you in the ways that you need help. But I'm happy to know that you've found someone who can. And I will do the same for myself.
The second thing is that I've have seen things that I never saw before in other people. This has allowed me to become even closer to them. I used to complain and whine all the time about how I felt as if I would never find those ever lasting friendships. The ones where you know that you'll keep in touch with that person forever, no matter what. I have been so ignorant to my own desires. I admit. Some of the people that I saw myself have those friendships with didn't feel the same way as me. But now I'm paying more attention to others and not just myself. There are people who want that kind of friendship with me, yet I never paid any attention to them. That's why I'm trying to be less picky and more open. Besides, how could I ever get far by being closed up? The ironic part is that I kinda always thought I was an open person. There are still things that I need to learn about myself.
Yes, this summer has definately been something. Aside from Mama Bird's B-Day party, hanging out all the time with Pho and getting closer to him, the tornado disaster, and many other things, I have certainly learned a lot. Now, I'm beginning to think that I am ready to head back to school. A new year means new things and people to encounter.
I think the child within me grew up just a little today.