(no subject)
Yes, I'm listening.
(to the sound of my own mind break)
Yes, I'm watching.
(From my crouched position the world before me turns gray)
Yes, I feel.
(razors jump roping along my heart)
I worked alone tonight. I honestly think I needed the solace.
The drizzle and mist combined were somewhat of a sedative.
I sat on the back patio smoking and thinking.
Perhaps too much of both. I indulge.
I am at a fairly odd place in my life.. come to think of it.. it would appear I over-use that line and I am ALWAYS at an odd place.
This is simply how it is. I doubt anything will ever come together.. what is together anyway? Why should it be this way for me? Maybe I am what I am and things are what they are or as they should be? What is my plan? Do I have one? Nay.
I wish the answers I am looking for within myself would rear their ugly little faces and spit on me.. at least I would know.. they existed?
That being said..
I think I'm pretty damn special and worthwhile despite my constant dismissal of having my feet on the ground. My toes at times drag.. this is good enough for me.
Oh? Curious as to what I have been up to the last many moons? Of course you are my darlings..
The same damn thing I have been up to for years.
Work
Working for my job promotion
Getting up earlier to ready myself for day shifts (this scares me)
Battle
Taking over the world
Mending broken bridges
Going out of town at least every few months
Spending the least amount of time on this bloody thing as possible
I am attempting to be a bit of a social butterfly.. watch for glimpses of me won't you?
I like to sleep now. A lot.
And I think I will do just that.
Goodnight.