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So in part, I have a whole lot to think about. I'm doing good here, but what if I have the chance to get out of the south? To make a long storyshort, Brie is up for a big job in New York, the kinda of job that would let me focus on just being an engineer. She put it on the table this morning. I guess it's just one of those points we were bound to find. We talk about marriage and commitment, but why ruin a good thing? I guess the real point here is that after two and a half years, staying together is more than just a conveinent effort to survive. I guess it was bound to happen.
On the other hand, maybe it's better for me to stay here a little bit longer. I think there's gonna be money for school, and what if something happened to her parents? Who by the way are probably more important to me than my own because they're not basket cases that drain me emotionally. Maybe it's just better for me to stay for a while.
On the third hand, if I don't leave sometime, I never will. Though I can't say that that really worries me too much. My spirit is far too adventurous for that.
Even funier than that, I'm beginning to see where everything will end. That's the scary part. I see myself retiring on my families farm, though I see a new house and not the hunting trailer that's there now. But that's many many many years from now.
On the other hand, maybe it's better for me to stay here a little bit longer. I think there's gonna be money for school, and what if something happened to her parents? Who by the way are probably more important to me than my own because they're not basket cases that drain me emotionally. Maybe it's just better for me to stay for a while.
On the third hand, if I don't leave sometime, I never will. Though I can't say that that really worries me too much. My spirit is far too adventurous for that.
Even funier than that, I'm beginning to see where everything will end. That's the scary part. I see myself retiring on my families farm, though I see a new house and not the hunting trailer that's there now. But that's many many many years from now.