She's always had a little something for him.
I don't know if I'm crazy or just really love him. I've know him for seven years or more and has always been the bestest friend I've had. And I've always had a little place for him in my heart, always have and always will. I think i've always had a place in he's heart too. He's always tried to get with me, and be with me.. but I've always been that shy girl and would never say or do anything to him due to my shyness and maybe that was a mistake and maybe it was I guess I'll never know. I meet my boyfriend though him because he was bestfriends with him, and I'm so glad I meet kevin because he's my life and I love him and wouldn't want that to change for the world. But then at the back of my heart I've always loved ____ and still do I think. He's the cutest boy ever and he's so nice to me and has always been there for me and I love him for that, I've always been there for him too I guess we kinda had the same kind of life so we could talk to eachother and understand eachother like no one else could so that right there brang us close to eachother more than ever. Don't get my wrong I love kevin, and always will, But I love ____ too. And I always wonder to myself what if I would have said yes, or asked him out what would it be like, would we be happy? Would we be in love? I always wonder what it would have been like, and mayeb that's my problem, But he's still a very good friend of mine and of kevins and he's my son's godfather and will always be in my life till the day I die. But as of right now I can't stop thinking about him, and maybe it was just because of tonight. He asked me to dance, and I did. No boy has ever asked me to dance, I haven't even danced with my own boyfriend, and maybe thats' why he's on my mind so much right now, because he's so sweet and I love being with him and makes me laugh until I pee my pants. Maybe I'm just being crazy. But sometimes when we're hanging with _____, I just love him and stare at him and sometimes just want to kiss him and I know it's so wrong because it's my boyfriends friend and he's my friend and I am in SOO in love with kevin, But me and ____ have such a long history and I don't know. It just makes me crazy the things he does I just fall in love with him and have these feelings for him, it dosen't always happen but tonight was one of those nights. Blah I don't know, I'm just going to stop babiling because i'm being a little crazy but I can't stop thinking about him - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - -