Love is...
Title: Love is…
Author: Maya Kawashima
Character: Arioka DaikixOC, Takaki YuyaxOC
Type: Oneshot Fanfic
Genre: Love, Drama
My alarm clock rang, I woke up and stood up quickly.
“Hello, world!!” I shouted happily.
Yes! I’m happy! Wanna know why? Because this day is the first anniversary of me and my boyfriend, Arioka Daiki!
I cleaned up my bed and went downstairs to ready myself. Oops! I forgot to introduce myself. I’m Kuchiki Mei, a student from Torigaoka Gakuen. I’m in my 2nd year of my senior high. I have a very handsome and cute boyfriend who loves me very much! I already mentioned his name earlier! XD
Enough of my intro, I’m already finished taking a bath. As I walked toward the dining area, I could smell the scent of toasted bread and fried eggs.
“Ohayoo, Ma!” I greeted my mother as I sat down on the chair in front of our dining table which is full of delicious foods.
“Ohayou, Mei! How’s your sleep?” she asked me with a smile.
“I had a great sleep though,” I answered then I giggled because I didn’t sleep that much, excited for the morning to come. But it’s okay, it doesn’t seem like I didn’t sleep that much.
After I ate, I went to my room and looked for my very beautiful dress that is fitted for this occasion. Then I put make- up on then after 15 minutes, I’m ready to go. Exactly the time Daiki called me on my phone.
I went downstairs to meet him outside. As I opened the gate, there I saw him talking with my mother. His motorcycle was parked opposite the house.
“Ohayoo, Mei! Happy anniversary!” Daiki greeted me when he saw me going out the gate.
“Ohayoo, Dai!! Happy anniversary!” I greeted back with a wide smile on my face. I’m not excited! Really! XP
“Let’s go?” he asked.
I nodded.
“Aunty, We’re going,” he said to my mother.
“Hai. Ki o tsukete, ne?” my mother said.
“Yes, aunty. Ittekimasu!” he said as we rode on to the motorcycle.
“Mama, jaa ne!” I said then off we go.
We went to a Sakura park. Just the time the cherry blossoms trees bloom! I love the scenery when we got there. After we unloaded from the motorcycle, he opened the seat and got a small basket from there.
“Ikou?” he asked then he walked ahead of me.
He suddenly stopped to choose a better place and when he saw one, he continued walking and approached the area. He got the picnic blanket from the small basket and placed it on the ground for us to sit there. I sat and he followed. He got a medium sized bento box and a water jar from the small basket.
“What do you got there in the bento?” I asked excitedly.
“Your favorite rice ball, of course! Which I made with love!” he said cutely. Then he pinched my cheek.
“Honto?”
“Hai,” he nodded.
“Sankyuu!”
“Doo ita!” he winked.
Uwaaah!!! Why is he so cute??? I’m really in love with this petite guy who does nothing but to make my heart skip a beat!
“Do you like to eat now?” he gestured at the bento box.
“Maybe later, I’m still full,” I answered. “Why? Do you want to eat now? Didn’t you eat breakfast?” I asked him.
“I ate, I just thought that you might want to eat now,” he said then he giggled.
“Sou ka na?” :3
“Hai.”
I giggled.
We talked about many sorts of things and when we felt that we are both hungry we opened the bento and ate. As usual, the rice balls he did are absolutely delicious and I can feel his love in my every bite.
I looked at him and smiled.
“Oh! You have a grain of rice on your lip,” he said.
“Eh?”
“Here, let me get it,” he said then he touched his finger on my lip as he gently removed the rice from my lip. “There!”
“Arigatou!”
When suddenly, he kissed me on the lips. It was a long kiss. I felt his soft lips onto mine. I felt my cheeks became hot but then I just let him to kiss me for another more seconds. Then after some more moments he released me. He looked at me in the eye, he is also blushing. My heart is beating very fast like it’ll come out from my chest in any moment.
“Doo itashimashite, Mei!” he said and he smiled.
Why is he such a handsome guy? Why is he doing this to me? He always surprises me with his sudden move.
“Let’s continue eating?” he asked.
I gasped. “Ah.. h- hai!” then I panicky got my chopsticks and continued eating.
He noticed my sudden change of action that’s why he laughed really hard.
I pouted. “Hidoi!” I told him.
“Gomen gomen,” he said but still laughing. “Demo ne… you’re so cute, Mei! I love seeing you that way!” he chuckled.
“Honto?”
“Hai. And you are the most beautiful girl I have ever seen in my 17 years of existence in this planet,” he told me with that very shiny smile.
“Arigatou,” that is all I could say because I can no longer say words that could describe how thankful I am for having him. This petite guy infront of me, with those perfect curved lips and heaven made face.
“Doo ita!” he said.
It was 6 in the evening when we decided to go home. We were just there for about 10 hours, haha. And now it’s time for us to go home.
He was driving in a medium speed when suddenly a bus overtook us and he was startled. Daiki’s focus in driving got lost and he started driving
shaky.
“Dai?” I asked with fear on my voice.
“It’s okay,” he said and he managed to drive well again. “What a terrible driver that was!” he exclaimed.
“Just let it go,” I said worriedly for he might do unnecessary things like catching up with that bus.
“Hai,” he said then he sighed.
“I love you, Dai!” I said sweetly to him.
He looked at me, “I love you too, Mei,” he said with a soothing voice and after that all I could see is a bright light coming from our front.
~~~~~
“Itai,” I moaned. I tried to open my eyes but opening my eyes seemed impossible because it’s also painful and all I could feel all over my body is pain.
“Mei?” a familiar voice said and I could feel the worry in her voice. But why is my mother worried? What happened? I can’t remember anything…
The bright light of an approaching bus towards our lane struck my eyes. “Daiki!!!” I shouted with fear, as I closed my eyes for me not to see what might happen next I felt that I was threw on the ground. With a great impact, I think my bones broke. I tried to opened my eyes and all I could see is chaos. Cars bumped into each other and I could hear many voices begging for help. I explore the area though my vision is swirling, I tried to look for Daiki… he might be looking for me… Daiki, I’m here… I hope you can hear me!! I shouted but as if I, myself, couldn’t hear what I’m shouting… Daiki might be worrying now… darkness covered me and I can no longer hear any of the begging voices and I can no longer feel my body… Daiki…
“Daiki!!!!” I shouted and I cried. I want to see Daiki!!! Where is my boyfriend??!!! He might be worried for me now!!! “Daiki!!!!”
“Mei!! Calm down, Mei!!” I heard my mother saying but I continued struggling. “Mei, calm down please!!” my mother is crying… “Nurse!! Call the doctor, please!!!” she begged.
The doctor came and he inject a fluid in my veins and I felt dizzy.
“What happened…” is that the doctor’s voice? I couldn’t hear him now… I’m beginning to be a deaf again…
~~~~~
I moved my hand and slowly opened my eyes… it’s all white… I looked at my surrounding, on my side, I saw my mother sleeping with her crossed arms which served as her pillow.
I moved my hand toward her head but it’s painful… I want to touch my mother… if I’m in the hospital then Daiki might visit me today. I’m happy that I can open my eyes now and see my surroundings.
“Ma,” I mouthed by I hardly spoke. Like, something is on my throat. I tried again, “Ma,” I pushed myself though it hurts. I grimaced because of the pain.
My mother moaned. She slowly tilted her head and he looked at me. “Mei?” she asked worriedly. “Mei!!” she cried. I could feel that she wants to hug me but it can’t be, I might get hurt. My body still hurts. My mother pressed the buzzer and not that long after, the doctor came in with a nurse.
The doctor examined me. After he examined me, he injected another fluid on the dextrose and it actually hurts. More painful than being stabbed by the syringe. I grimaced.
Days went on like this, being examined by the doctor every 6 hours. Until the day came that I can already speak without any pain and my body is able to move.
An afternoon, my mother is feeding me for lunch. I looked at her meaningfully.
“Ma,” I started.
“Yes, Mei?” she asked.
“Why isn’t Daiki visiting me?” I asked. This was my thought’s all about from the day I woke up until now. I didn’t see him even his shadows. Did he already abandon me because I got sick and I might be immobilized?
“Mei…” she just muttered, she looked at me with sad eyes and she just continued feeding me.
I didn’t know what to think…
After the nurse injected the fluid in my dextrose, my mother asked the nurse but I couldn’t hear it. They were talking secretly.
After that, the nurse went out and came back with a wheel chair. They carefully put me on the wheel chair. I wonder where we will be going… a test?
Maybe… they might scan my brain…
After some minutes, we stopped in front of a room. The nurse opened the door. I looked up and saw the room’s name-ICU. I wondered more. As my mother pushed me inside the room my eyes gone wide with the view. Why is Daiki lying there???? Why is there many apparatus connected in his body??? I looked at my mother but she looked away.
“I want to see him clearly,” I said to her. She pushed the wheel chair until I’m face to face with Daiki. “What happened to him?” I whispered to myself.
“He’s in comma and we are still monitoring him. His skull got fractured and his spinal cord broke. Some of his ribs also broke and the bone in his right arm broke. This is all due to the great impact when he got hit by the bus. I’m sorry to say that his chance of living is 50-50,” the nurse said.
“You’re kidding, right?” I said, I chuckled.
“No, I’m not, ma’am,” the nurse said.
“You’re kidding!!!! You liar!!! THIS CAN’T BE HAPPENING TO HIM!!! YOU’RE A LIAR!!! YOU’RE A LIAR!!!” I shouted as my tears oozed from my eyes. My mother pulled the wheel chair and she led me outside. “GET ME BACK THERE!!! DAIKI NEEDS ME!!! HE JUST WANT ME TO HUG HIM AND AFTER THAT HE WILL BE OKAY!!!” I shouted at my mother.
My mother shook his head and she continued pushing the wheel chair until we got to my room.
I was shock… very shocked… after that day I am not eating well… I don’t want to eat… I’m always staring blankly…
“Ma…”
“Yes, Mei?” my mother asked.
“Where’s Daiki’s parents? Why they were not there when I visited him?” I asked, not looking at her… I’m still staring at the white wall opposite my bed…
“They just ate when we went there, don’t worry, Daiki’s parents are taking good care of him,” my mother answered me still with a smile… I felt guilty for her… I’m being too stubborn like this but she’s still giving me a sweet encouraging smile… how can I do this to my own mother? I’m too selfish…
“Ma?” this time I looked at her.
“Hmm?” she smiled as a response.
“If I eat a lot and follow all the doctor’s direction, will I get well very soon?”
“Of course,” she said. Having that smile full of hope when she heard me asked that, my spirit burned.
“Then when I get well, can I take care of Daiki?”
“Of course, Mei.”
“I want to take care of him. I want to get well as soon as possible and when I’m okay, all things will go back to normal. Me, being the girlfriend of Daiki.
Me, taking good care of him just like the usual,” I said then I smiled.
“That’s right, Mei.”
“I want an apple, Ma,” I said.
My mother smiled at me with so much joy.
~~~~~
A month later, I recovered and I was discharged from the hospital. I went back to school. Everyday I visit Daiki and I talk to him even though he is not
responding but I know he can hear me.
~~~~~
“Kuchiki!!” a familiar voice called. I turned just to be pissed off with his abnormal face. “Hey! Wait there!” he commanded.
I sighed and I rolled my eyes. “What?” I asked coldly.
“Sensei told me that you will be my tutor in Math,” he said.
“So?” I asked flatly.
“So, you have to teach me right now,” he smirked.
“I have a lot of things to do,” I said.
“But it is your duty to tutor me, isn’t it?”
I exhaled. “Takaki~san, I will tutor you in the day that I want to tutor you and on the day that I am not busy. And to think, you’re the tutee that’s why you are the one who needs to fit on my given schedule. Is that understandable, Takaki~san?” I asked sarcastically. I really got pissed off of his face and I don’t know why. And another thing that I don’t understand is that many girls like him but I don’t see anything to be liked from him.
“Saa, okee,” he said arrogantly. “Jaa, Kuchiki!” then he went off.
Grr!!! He’s making me angry!!!
But I was not able to escape my horrible destiny-- that is to tutor him. Not only that, he will come to our house, eat the food my mother makes, sit on the soft sofa my father bought for us, smell the fresh air our house has and drink the mineral water that comes from our water dispenser… sigh! I hope Daiki is with me so that I’m not this stressful.
“Kuchiki? Oi, Kuchiki!!” he shouted at me.
“What’s your problem, you alien!” I shouted back at him.
“You never continued, we’re stuck in this 8+8-8x0÷8,” he said innocently. I didn’t know I was just staring at that operation.
“Baka!! This is just a trivia and you can’t answer that??? How impossible you are!!” I shouted at him.
“Yeah, right!! So, Ms. Intelligent, why don’t you tell me the answer? Because I’m baka!” he said sarcastically then he grinned.
“Found it out with yourself. If I’ll give the answer right away then you’ll remain baka forever!” I grinned.
“Tss,” he hissed, annoyed.
I grinned more, he was forced to solved it then after some minutes he’s done and he showed his answer to me.
“1?” I asked him.
“Yes. Does it look like a number 7?”
“You sure it’s 1?”
“Very sure,” he boast.
I laughed so hard with that. I know it’s wrong to laugh at him but I couldn’t refrain myself.
“What’s funny?” he asked, his eyebrow raised.
“You’re answer. Takaki~san, you’re my classmate, right?”
“Do I look like your teacher?”
I smiled at him sarcastically. “Just continue your being sarcastic, I enjoy it actually. So, if you’re my classmate then you are already 2nd year senior high school, right?”
“What do you think?” he smirked.
“And if you’re a 2nd year senior high school, probably, at least your IQ is higher that a 1st grader, right?”
“So?”
“8+8 is?”
“16, of course.”
“16-8 is?”
“8.”
“8x0 is?”
“0, of course. Are you nuts? I thought you know the answer? And now you’re asking me these?” he chuckled.
“Let’s just continue. 0÷8 is?”
“0…”
“Where did you get 1?”
“Maa…”
“And who’s nuts now?” I raised an eyebrow and I smirked.
“Fine! Fine! You won! Okay? So let’s continue now!” he said, pissed off. He rolled his eyes.
“1,” I muttered then I shook my head and laughed.
“Yeah, make fun out of it,” he said sarcastically but I can already see him being more ugly because of his frown and pissed off face. I won!! Hahaha!!!
~~~~~
That is the scenario everyday. After I visited Daiki, I go home and tutor that Bakaki. I always won over him actually. If he is sarcastic then I’m double than him. He never fail to make me laugh actually, it is because of his bakaness! XD
~~~~~
Almost half a year have passed and Daiki is still in this hospital… but I never gave up! I know he will wake up. Not now nor tomorrow not next week nor next month but I know he will wake up. I’ll wait for him even if it takes how many years… but… 6 months is long enough… I wonder what is he dreaming about… is he dreaming that we’re together?
I caressed his head down to his cheek, I smiled and looked at him with hope.
“You know what, Dai, when you wake up I’ll show you the most baka creature ever lived in this planet. If I’m not mistaken you know him, right? I always laugh at him and I’m loving that. It’s like I have my new past time-that is to pissed of that Bakaki. Demo ne, Dai… nothing will make me laugh truly if it is not only you… I always remember those days when you make silly faces and you made me laugh to death… oh--,” I stopped because the door suddenly creaked and it closed.
I stood up to look if who was it but when I examined the area outside the room there was no one. I came back inside and continued telling stories to Daiki.
~~~~~
Another tutor day… sigh…
I sat infront of him as I placed the math book on the table in front of us. I looked at him and he was looking at me intently. I raised my eyebrow.
“Bakaki?” I started but he just stared at me. “You got a problem?” I raised my eyebrow.
“Ah… huh? Are you saying something?” he asked.
“None,” I said then I rolled my eyes.
“Kuchiki…” he muttered.
“What?” I asked flatly.
“What do you feel while your boyfriend is there? Lying unconscious?” he asked.
I was shocked with his question. “You don’t have anything to do with that,” I said. “Let’s start now so that we can finish earlier,” I said. I opened the book but he held my hand and pushed the cover page down. “What are you doing?” I asked him, my brows knitted.
“Why don’t you relax? You take things so seriously,” he said, still holding my hand.
I pulled my hand from him. “What are you talking about?”
“I’m talking about you. I can see that you are so stressed and I think the reason is your boyfriend in comma,” he said.
My eyes gone big with what he have said. I stood up and walked away.
“Hey! Where are you going?” he asked.
“You can go home now. And don’t you ever tell me that! Like you know what I am thinking and what I am feeling! You don’t know how it is! Now, leave!!!” I yelled at him.
“Kuchiki…”
“Mei, what happened here?” my mother asked as she rushed toward us. “Mei, what’s wrong? Why are you crying?” she asked worriedly.
I’m crying? Oh yeah, right! That stupid ugly alien made me angry so much! “Just leave, Takaki!” I said once again and I went upstairs.
As I entered my room I lie down my bed and covered my face with a pillow. I cried really hard. I know, and that alien is right… it’s hard for me and I’m sort of stressed but not only because of Daiki but also because of that alien! My life never became that good after that accident… why do I have to suffer like this???!!! I miss Daiki!!! I want to hug him but I can’t! I want to see his smile again but I can’t! Daiki!!!! Maybe that Bakaki is right… I’m pushing myself too much… but is it wrong to do that? I just want to forget that my love is there, lying and not sure if he’ll ever get up from there… I’m visiting him and talking to him, thinking that he might hear me and wake up and he’ll hug me when he saw me by his side…
~~~~~
I am sitting on the bench under the oak tree adjacent our building. I am with my laptop, typing my report for tomorrow. Suddenly a hand holding a soda can popped up from my side. I was startled a bit. I tilted my head just to see Bakaki. He was smiling at me. I raised an eyebrow.
“What?” I asked flatly as I went back on typing on my laptop.
“My peace offering to you,” he said as he jumped to sit on the bench on my side. “Here,” he said as he gave me the soda can. I ignored him. “Won’t you take it?” he asked. Still, I ignored him. “Look, I’m really sorry about what happened yesterday… I just wanted you to relax and see the beauty of the world,” he continued, he is not yet to give up. “Just look above and you’ll see the beautiful blue sky. Then you look at your side and you’ll see the beautiful bark of the oak tree. You look at me and you’ll see a beautiful ugly alien,” he said.
“Bakaki, can’t you see what I’m doing? I’m doing my report and you’re so--,” I looked at him but I was not able to continue what I have to say because he is so ugly with that silly face. I laughed. “Baka!” I shouted at him but then I laughed so hard. I stole the soda can from his hand, I opened it and I drank it.
“You’re welcome!” he said.
“I’m not thanking you,” I said flatly again.
“In case you thought of thanking me. That’s an advance ‘you’re welcome’,” he said then smiled.
Wow! His smile today is shiny, huh! But he’s still an alien! “Yeah!” I said sarcastically. I stood up and put the empty soda can on his hand. “Just throw it. Jaa!” I left.
Days passed by and I became really busy because I accepted all the works and errands from some teacher and student council officer. This is also an escape to not think about Daiki’s situation… and because of this busyness I forgot that my boyfriend is still in the ICU…
As I was checking test papers, I felt my eyelid became heavy and my eyes are closing slowly… slowly… until I fell asleep.
Morning came, I felt the warmth of the blanket from my back. Oh! I forgot that I fell asleep here on the small table in the living room. I inhaled then I opened my eyes and saw Bakaki sleeping opposite me with his crossed arms which served as his pillow.
I stood up and I looked at him. I wondered why he’s in here… I sat again and I stared at his face. He looks like human while sleeping… he’s… he’s handsome… oh! His lips are pouty… I just noticed now that his hair is colored near to gold but still have the shade of brown… I didn’t know that he indeed looks human…
“Mei?” my mother called softly.
“M- Ma!” I was startled. I suddenly stood up and started walking toward my mother who was at the first step of the staircase.
“Good thing you’re already awake,” my mother said then she smiled.
“Ah yes. Ohayou, mama,” I greeted her.
“Ohayou,” she greeted with a smile. “Oh! And wake Takaki~kun up so that you can eat now,” my mother said.
“Ah, ma? Why is he in here this early?” I wondered.
“He slept here with you,” she said.
“What?”
“He came here yesterday for your tutor session but he reached you sleeping there,” she gestured at the living room. “I told him to come back tomorrow but he insisted to wait for you until you wake up so I let him. He was actually the one who put that blanket on to your back,” she smiled. “And then when I was about to invite him to eat he also fell asleep and I didn’t wake the both of you because you seemed so tired,” she explained.
“Sou ka?”
“Hai. You wake him up now,” my mother commanded.
I nodded. I walked toward him again and I woke him up. “Oi! Wake up!!!!” I shouted at his ear drum. XD
“UwaaaH!!!” he jumped from his deep slumber tahaha!!! “Oh! You’re awake now,” he said.
“Yes and it’s morning now,” I said then I smirked.
“What?” he asked unbelievably.
“Stand up now so that we can eat,” I said.
“Hai,” he nodded.
I smiled.
~~~~~
As the days passed that I am with Bakaki, I learned to understand him and I learned to be kind to him even just a little because I can’t stop bullying him. I’m really enjoying! XD His face when he’s pissed off is priceless! XD and most importantly, I learned to enjoy every day with him…
And just one day I woke up… I found out that I have a special feeling for him already… and there’s that fact that I can’t be happy without seeing his calm handsome face.
~~~~~
“Mei?” Yuya called.
“Hmm?” I asked without lifting my head from his chest. We are sitting under the Mahogany tree of our school while my head is resting on his chest.
“I love you,” he said.
I giggled. “I love you too,” I responded.
“I love you!” he said again.
“I love you too.”
“And I love you again.”
“Hai.”
“I love you forever!” he exclaimed.
“I lo--,” I’m interrupted by my ringing phone. I released my hug from Yuya and got my phone. I leaned it to my earlobe. “Hai?”
“Mei?”
“Ma?”
“Daiki already woke up,” she said… woke up? Daiki already woke up? But why? I mean, now that I am… I looked at Yuya, he smile at me.
“Mei? Are you still there?”
“Yes, ma. I’m still here,” I said. My heart is beating abnormally…
“He’s looking for you. Won’t you come and see him?”
See him? I looked at Yuya again. “Yes, mama. I’ll go there immediately,” I said.
“Okay. We’ll just meet there, alright?”
“Yes, ma.”
“Jaa!” then she hung up.
I have to be happy now that he woke up… aren’t I? But why I am feeling like this? I should be happy! But 1 year already passed and many things happened… what am I gonna do?
“Mei? Are you alright?” he asked worriedly.
“Huh? Yes! I’m okay. My mama called and we have a meeting. We’ll be going somewhere so go ahead of me now,” I told him.
“I bring you to your meeting place,” he insisted.
“Huh? No! No, I mean… no need. I’ll just take a taxi. Jaa, ne!” I stood up and ran away as fast as I could so that the throbbing of my heart will match the tiredness of my body…
~~~~~
My mother went inside the room first and I followed. I slowly went inside, I’m very nervous… I don’t know what to feel…
“Mei?” I heard him calling my name.
I looked at him then I smiled.
“Won’t you hug me?” he asked.
Hug? Ah yes, a hug… I went toward him and I hugged him. My heart bit very fast… I know this feeling… I- I’m still in love with him!
“I missed you!” he said as he embraced me.
“I missed you too!!” I said. “Daiki!!! Daiki!!! Daiki!!!” I cried out loud.
“Sssh,” he shushed. “It’s okay now. I woke up that’s why your wait is over,” he said, calming me.
I cupped his face to my hand and looked at him eye to eye, “I thought you won’t wake up anymore… I thought you will leave me… please don’t leave me again? Please?” I begged while crying.
“Yes, I won’t leave you again. And how can I leave you, I can never leave you while I heard all of those stories you shared with me while I’m asleep. Maybe those were just a dream but I know you were in my dreams… I may not see you caressing my face but I know you were that one. Mei, I promise you that I will get better soon and we will be together again,” he said as he smiled.
“Hai. Just like before that terrible thing happened,” I told him.
“Just like that,” he agreed.
I felt really happy to see him again. At last! After hours of visit that day, I and mother went home with over flowing joy in our hearts. This is the day that I’ve been waiting for. =)
At home, while being ready for sleep, my phone rang. I looked at the receiver… it’s Yuya… I stared at my phone, thinking if should I answer it or not? I nearly forgot… I cheated on Daiki… I actually gave up on him… and looked for happiness with another guy… and now, I’m so confused…
The phone kept on ringing until I got enough of it. “Konbanwa!” I started.
“Mei, my love! I miss you!” he said. I was stuck… I became speechless… I didn’t know what to say… “Mei? You still there?” he asked.
“Hai… hai…” I answered.
“You’re okay?” he asked worriedly.
“Yes, I’m okay. I’m just tired. Don’t worry,” I lied.
“Really? Okay, I think you better rest now. Oyasumi nasai, Mei,” he said.
“Hai, oyasumi,” I responded. I hung up the phone and I dropped my body on my bed.
What will I do now? Please, someone help me…
~~~~~
“Okay, open your mouth!” I said to Daiki as I fed him with porridge. He opened his mouth.
He munched then swallowed. “I think I look like a baby,” he chuckled.
“You do look like a baby ever since,” I smiled at him.
He laughed. “Ah, Mei?”
“Hai?”
“That Bakaki you were talking about while I was asleep, is he still bothering you?” he asked straightly.
I thought he was just being in trance when he told me that he could hear me telling stories to him… indeed he heard all of those… and he’s asking about Yuya…
“Mei?”
“Ah, yes? Ahmm, you’re asking about Bakaki? We’re good now and we’re friends actually,” I laughed.
“Good then,” he smiled.
But will it be still good when you knew what had gone between us?
~~~~~
It continued that way. In school, I’m with Yuya and when I visit Daiki I’m with him… so complicated… I want to end this now but I don’t know how! What should I do??
And the day came… Daiki already discharged from the hospital. He undergone many operations and all of those were successful. He came back to normal… like no accident happened.
I’m still hiding the complicated situation to the both of them and the fact that I’m still continuing this I’m hurting them deeply… the effect is not yet seen to them but when they knew what’s the situation… I know the cut is deep…
A week after Daiki was discharged from the hospital… he went to our house. It was Sunday and I know it is safe from Yuya because he told me that they will go hiking.
While we are sitting on the sofa we were chattering like the old times.
“I missed this house!” Daiki exclaimed.
“And this house missed you too,” I told him as I pinched his cheek.
“Itai!!” he shrieked.
I laughed.
My mother went in the living room.
“Mei, Takaki~kun is here,” my mother informed me.
“Eh? But he said that he will go hiking…” my eyes gone big and my heart started to run very fast. What will I do? My mother doesn’t know about the situation also… she doesn’t know that I and Yuya have an affair…
“I don’t know,” my mother shrugged. “Takaki~kun, come in,” my mother said.
“Who’s Takaki?” Daiki asked.
“H- Huh?”
“Ohayou, Mei!” Yuya greeted. When he saw Daiki his eyes went wide and for sure he was shocked.
“O- Ohayou, Takaki,” I greeted back. It felt very awkward. Having the two guys I am in a relation with…
“Takaki? Hmm… so is he the Bakaki you’re talking about?” Daiki asked. He looked at me.
“Ah… yes. Yes! He is Bakaki,” I laughed nervously. I looked at Yuya and my laughed changed into a scowl.
Daiki stood up and went toward Yuya. I wonder what Daiki is planning to do… I also stood up. I looked at Yuya, he looks like tensed and angry…
“Hi, Takaki~san! I’m Arioka Daiki. Mei’s boyfriend,” he introduced to himself then he extended her arm for a handshake.
“Nice meeting you,” Yuya said calmly then he received the hand of Daiki. “Hmm I think I have to go now, I remembered that I have many school works to do…” he said.
“Eh? You just came. Why don’t you sit for a while?” Daiki invited.
“Ah, no. I’m okay. Thank you. Mei, I’ll go ahead,” he looked at me then he left. I could see sadness on his eyes. I couldn’t take to see him like that.
Daiki went back to my side. He smiled as he stared on the mini table in front of us. “Is he… is he the reason why you were away for half a year while I’m still in the hospital?” he looked at me eye to eye.
“W- what are you talking about?” I denied.
“I told you, I know that from the day I was confined there you were visiting me because I can hear your voice but suddenly I can no longer hear your stories… I got worried that’s why I struggled to wake up. I thought you will be the first person I’ll see on my side… and when I didn’t see you I got
worried and I asked my parents… they said that you were no longer visiting me and they don’t know the reason…” he stated.
“Dai…”
“I’m not mad… I understand… maybe you were just too sad because of me… if you love him more than me now, I will accept it,” he said, smiling at me.
“No,” I muttered.
“I think… you need time and space… I should go now.”
“Daiki,” I refrained him from leaving. “Don’t leave me… please?”
“I won’t… but you need to make a decision,” he smiled at me.
“Please don’t do this to me…”
“You need to make a decision. If you don’t then all of us will suffer,” he said. “I’ll go now, jaa!” then he left.
He did leave. I heard the sound of the gate.
I stared blankly. Then I screamed loudly! My heart is breaking!!! What happened??!! Why is this happening??? Why!!!
“Mei!” my mother approached me. “What’s wrong?”
“I hurt Daiki and Yuya…” then I ran away and went toward my room.
~~~~~
My phone is ringing… I looked at it, it’s Yuya. i didn’t know that I fell asleep and it’s already 9 in the evening. I answered my phone.
“Yuya?” I started with a frail voice.
“Mei,” he answered.
“I’m sorry…” tears escaped from my eyes again.
“I understand,” he said. I can’t trace any pain in his voice.
“Are you about to sleep now?”
“No…”
“Have you eaten?”
“Not yet…”
“Why?” he asked worriedly.
“I don’t want to eat…”
“Why? You should eat, Mei,” he said worriedly.
“D- Daiki already knew about us…”
“What? Did he hurt you?”
“No… I hurt him… inside,” and I cried.
“Hey, stop crying now. You’re making me worry for you and sad,” he said in a calm voice.
“And I hurt you also…”
“It’s okay. I understand. Don’t blame yourself. It’s my fault in the first place because I fell in love with you that’s why I made ways to be close to you, to
express my love for you.”
“But I also love you.”
“Don’t, Mei. Go back to Daiki. He deserves you and you deserve him.”
“Why the both of you is too kind? Why don’t you hate me? I hurt the both of you. You should hate me!!!” I wept.
“No, no. No, Mei. Don’t say that. You eat now, okay? Then go to sleep. I love you and I will always do,” he said then he hung.
But why? They should hate me!! They must hate me!!! I don’t know… I’m such a monster!!! The two of them don’t deserve me! I’m horrible!!!
Days, weeks passed and I became aloof. I avoided the two of them. I know it hurts and it’s actually hard to do but it is needed.
Months passed and graduation is just around the corner…
Under the sakura tree… but this time it has no blossoms… it’s not yet its time to bloom just like me… not yet… it’s been there but I wasted it until the time came that all the flowers fell and disappeared. I called for the two guys who became a part of my life.
“Mei!” Daiki called as he walked toward me. He smiled at me.
I smiled at him.
After some more minutes, Yuya came. He is also wearing a smile.
“Yo!” he greeted me.
“Hmm… now that you, two, are here now… I just want to tell you… thank you. Thank you for loving me with all your heart. For being so good to me even though I hurt the two of you. Those smiles never vanished,” I told them.
“Hmm… is there a problem, Mei?” Daiki asked.
“You can tell me, you can tell us…” Yuya said.
“It’s not a problem though… but I just wanted to say to you my goodbyes,” I said then I pressed my lips and smiled at them.
“Huh?” both of them exclaimed in chorus.
“I’ll be leaving. My father wants me to study in England and to live permanently there together with my mother,” I told them.
Both became sad… they didn’t know what to say.
“If that’s the case… goodluck then. And always take care,” Yuya said.
“Mei, I will miss you. Visit here when you’re free. Bring my love to you there and take care,” Daiki said then he smiled.
“Arigatou, Daiki, Yuya…” I smiled. Still I love them but loving them both won’t make things right.
“Arigatou!” Daiki bowed.
“Arigatou, Mei,” Yuya said and he also bowed.
“Uhn. Hai,” I nodded and smiled at them. “I’ll leave now. Sayonara!” I bowed at them and walked away. As much as I want to look back but it will be more painful. I hope they’ll find their pair, their princesses who will love them as much as I did.
~~~~~
“See this photo of silly face? And this another silly face, Mai?”
“Yes, mommy.”
“This two guys loved me once but I still love them. So when you grow up and when someone tells you that he loves you, you should love him too with all your heart and never waste it, okay?”
“But, mommy, isn’t it, it’s happy to have many people love you?”
“Yes, it is. But when it comes to love like your mommy experienced it is better to only have one, ‘for having two it won’t make things easier but it will make things worst. Ok?”
“Yes, mommy!”
“Neechan!! My daughter won’t understand that yet. She’s too young to understand that!”
“I know, Ryosuke. I’m just telling her my experience,” I said then I fixed my eye glasses and stood up.
I walked toward the veranda and smelled the scent of approaching Spring. Flowers and trees will bloom again… a cycle it may seem but it’s not. It’s always there like love…
~OVER~