Going slowly insane...
I think I'm just starting to Hate people.. >_> It may be one of those seasonal things, Winter, I'm depressed, Spring, I'm antzy and egomaniacal, Summer, I'm happy and energetic... and Fall, I'm just pissed off. If you're not one of my close friends, You're probably doing something that pisses me off right now. This includes my family, To some Extent. I don't count my brothers as close friends, for instance.
I'm also starting to think Livejournal and IMs are more or less worthless. If not for lizz, and my RL friends that use it, I'd probably just delete the two. I've alienated most of my good friends OL in the past year, (all my fault of course), And girls around here are impossible to deal with. But that's a rant for a different day.
Money for me is Easy, Guy friends are Easy, practically anything I apply myself to is simple. I have a good, low maintainence life, A steady job, A car... Frankly, I consider myself somewhat ahead, Even if I'm still living with my parents. (Around here, it's impossible not to, unless you have three roomates)... The one thing I'm lacking (And most all my friends are lacking too, come to think of it) is somebody to cuddle/kiss/screw/lick/whatever with, Who isn't like the girls around here. ... And between their looks and their personalities, almost make them as unappealing as the guys. -_- *Sighs* Be a plus if she likes paintball.
I think it's a nasty problem that stems from my otherwise optimal lifestyle, (I work in landscaping, live with my folks, Hang with 100% male friends, play paintball, Never went to High school) My looks (Big, Bearded, Kinda ugly, Nowhere near the 'pop asthetic') And personal psychosis (I don't like parties, Large groups of people make me Seriously uneasy). Not to mention the way girls think... >_< God. Lizz, Why Can't there be more girls like you?! Everybody around here is just... Eww. I'm desperate, but I'm not touching Them.
*Sighs*
I'm also starting to think Livejournal and IMs are more or less worthless. If not for lizz, and my RL friends that use it, I'd probably just delete the two. I've alienated most of my good friends OL in the past year, (all my fault of course), And girls around here are impossible to deal with. But that's a rant for a different day.
Money for me is Easy, Guy friends are Easy, practically anything I apply myself to is simple. I have a good, low maintainence life, A steady job, A car... Frankly, I consider myself somewhat ahead, Even if I'm still living with my parents. (Around here, it's impossible not to, unless you have three roomates)... The one thing I'm lacking (And most all my friends are lacking too, come to think of it) is somebody to cuddle/kiss/screw/lick/whatever with, Who isn't like the girls around here. ... And between their looks and their personalities, almost make them as unappealing as the guys. -_- *Sighs* Be a plus if she likes paintball.
I think it's a nasty problem that stems from my otherwise optimal lifestyle, (I work in landscaping, live with my folks, Hang with 100% male friends, play paintball, Never went to High school) My looks (Big, Bearded, Kinda ugly, Nowhere near the 'pop asthetic') And personal psychosis (I don't like parties, Large groups of people make me Seriously uneasy). Not to mention the way girls think... >_< God. Lizz, Why Can't there be more girls like you?! Everybody around here is just... Eww. I'm desperate, but I'm not touching Them.
*Sighs*