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So as I get ready to leave you all, I realize there has been one person who was truly there for me all year long. She was there when I started cutting again, and not only did she understand and listen, but she was there with makeup every day for a week soI wouldn't go on stage with cut up arms. And she talked to me, and could relate, and she (with the help of my therapist of course) is one of the few responsible for gettnig me to stop, and to find other outlets. She was there through my boy troubles, and through my girl problems(catty girls, and high school drama)and she was the only person I felt honestly gave me her true opinion. When I was wrong she told me, yet she didnt tell me in a way that made me feel as if she was against me. She explained how i was wrong, and helped me clarify things. and when she thought i was right, she stood behind me 100%... and was always there for me, even when she was the only one. And the craziest thing of all, is that my "problems" paled in comparison to hers. Grace is the strongest person I know, having been through more than any of us can imagine... and with the latest obstacle... I am in awe. We sat there talking and she explained all the ways a problem that would ruin my life, and I'm not ure I could possibly deal with, may actually help her, and benefit her, and allow her to become a better person. This seems so sappy... but she really is an amazing person, and even with our few tiny rough patches, shes remained a grat friend... OMG ILL MISS HER SO MUCH!!! I haven't forgotten the rest of you!!! You've all helped me becomme who I am today, and I thank you all for the chats, and the support, and the crazy times.... I don't even know why I'm posting this, I'm such a loser... I guess I was just so inspired after todays chat.... and guess what?? just 3 1/2 more days!