Checklist
Stop missing class due to staying up too late the night before.
Get the next Percy Jackson book. Actually, better get a couple of them. That first one was done in one night.
Get your shit out of your sister's car. Seriously, it's just rude.
Stop. Chasing. Married. Women. For fuck's sake.
Start working on your first essay for English class. Better to get that shit out of the way early.
I know that I have no idea what I want to do with my life. I know that I'm just picking things at random to see what's going to work. I mean, eventually something's gotta work, right? I don't want to say "someday, somehow." I NEVER want to say that. I never want to sit around and WAIT for my life to happen. I will MAKE it happen. I just... need answers. Programming seems to make sense, on the surface. As much as anything else ever did, anyway.
I'm already in the field, constantly learning. I've been at a tech support job for more than a year, and as frustrating as it often is, I'm not yet getting that feeling that I need to leave and start over, the way I usually do. The truth is, the job is fulfilling in its own way. I'm a problem solver. I am presented with puzzles in the form of error messages, broken databases, faulty applications. And I make the shit work again. Arriving in this field later in my youth puts me at a disadvantage, but I've always been the underdog. I must admit, I enjoy erupting from the ashes and showing everyone what I'm really made of.
Of course, I don't think "everyone" is who needs proof of my potential. It's me. It's always been me. I've always needed to prove myself to MYSELF.
... I actually feel MUCH better about my program of study, all of a sudden.
Get the next Percy Jackson book. Actually, better get a couple of them. That first one was done in one night.
Get your shit out of your sister's car. Seriously, it's just rude.
Stop. Chasing. Married. Women. For fuck's sake.
Start working on your first essay for English class. Better to get that shit out of the way early.
I know that I have no idea what I want to do with my life. I know that I'm just picking things at random to see what's going to work. I mean, eventually something's gotta work, right? I don't want to say "someday, somehow." I NEVER want to say that. I never want to sit around and WAIT for my life to happen. I will MAKE it happen. I just... need answers. Programming seems to make sense, on the surface. As much as anything else ever did, anyway.
I'm already in the field, constantly learning. I've been at a tech support job for more than a year, and as frustrating as it often is, I'm not yet getting that feeling that I need to leave and start over, the way I usually do. The truth is, the job is fulfilling in its own way. I'm a problem solver. I am presented with puzzles in the form of error messages, broken databases, faulty applications. And I make the shit work again. Arriving in this field later in my youth puts me at a disadvantage, but I've always been the underdog. I must admit, I enjoy erupting from the ashes and showing everyone what I'm really made of.
Of course, I don't think "everyone" is who needs proof of my potential. It's me. It's always been me. I've always needed to prove myself to MYSELF.
... I actually feel MUCH better about my program of study, all of a sudden.