la vida normal
so it's been about 8 years since i've posted...and yea...well i think pretty much that things are the same. i'm just going crazy cause i want to know if i'm studying abroad and if so where i'm going?!? it's going to suck either answer i get cause i'll have to deal with anthony being all sad and then not wanting to do anything....i guess i can say that i understand...but it's hard when so much could be waiting for me. i guess i am just blinded by the excitement of another country to really see how he perceives it. i guess it could seem like i am abandoning him....but i am coming back. eventually. i just want a congrats or a good job...not sadness.
i am just so tired anymore.....maybe that's why i just feel like being a loner and not really doing anything anymore. i've reverted back into my shell to hide away for a little bit. i kind of wish i could go for a drive right now....just me, the wind running through my hair, and the tunes to keep my mind off all of the shit in the world.
and now i've pissed off antny. i just feel sometimes like i have to take care of him....but i went overboard last night. and i feel really bad cause i treated him like a child. for christ's sake he is a grown man and can survive in this stupid world without me. he has done it all these years. i just feel really bad about it...and he left this morning for work angry still. i was just trying to look out for him...but i just didn't give him enough credit. i think i just get tired of some of his shit that i fight back with shit like last night.
i just need a break from life.....
ok...i'm just bored and waiting to go to work....
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i am just so tired anymore.....maybe that's why i just feel like being a loner and not really doing anything anymore. i've reverted back into my shell to hide away for a little bit. i kind of wish i could go for a drive right now....just me, the wind running through my hair, and the tunes to keep my mind off all of the shit in the world.
and now i've pissed off antny. i just feel sometimes like i have to take care of him....but i went overboard last night. and i feel really bad cause i treated him like a child. for christ's sake he is a grown man and can survive in this stupid world without me. he has done it all these years. i just feel really bad about it...and he left this morning for work angry still. i was just trying to look out for him...but i just didn't give him enough credit. i think i just get tired of some of his shit that i fight back with shit like last night.
i just need a break from life.....
ok...i'm just bored and waiting to go to work....
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