reading one blog
Sinulle, joka varmasti aina luet nämä mun merkinnät joka ilta tai aamu tai what ever - KYLLÄ MÄ PISTÄN SEN BLOGIN VIELÄ PYSTYYN xDDD Mulla on nyt vaan hirvee kriisi ja ongelma sen kanssa, miten alotan sen ja miten teen sen. Yllättävän haastavaa...
Ja sinulle samalle ihmiselle kysymys: jos sun porukat lupaa maksaa sulle sen matkan espanjaan, niin jos mun porukat suostus auttaa mua kans, niin jos mä lähden sun kanssa? Huhti-toukokuussa esim, tai kesällä, eipä näytä noita töitäkään tulevan.
I'm reading this blog, and hearing things, and I'm thinking too much... I need to get some place warm. I want to go on a vacation with friends... I get very anxious about this every time I remember to think about it. It's not nice at all... And I shouldn't be thinking anything else but German for these last three days at least...
I haven't said this to anyone yet, but I hate this country right now. I don't have any opinions that are good to be public, I just shut my mouth about this, but of course I didn't get any job for the summer. It's not my fault. I just hate the fact that I know my parent are gonna be pissed off. What the hell can I do? And I get so fucking angry to hear someone say "I just got an invite to three job interviews!!!" Like... I wanna just kill those people right now. Why do they get three and others get nothing? Hypin seinille täällä taas.
And then the school. I'm practically done with my high school But I don't wanna go to school next Fall. I don't feel like studying at this point of my life. I just want to get a job and do things.
BUT NO! WHAT THE FUCK! WHY IS EVERYTHING SO FUCKING HARD IN THIS COUNTRY IF YOU'RE NOT A PERFECT STUDENT?
Of course my friends get into schools rigth away, because they're all perfect and elitists. But I don't. And it's hard, to not be able to do anything. No school, no job... On one hand I don't mind about it, it would be great to have time for myself for a while, and not stress about something all the time. But on the other hand, I know that after a month or two I would start to hate myself for doing nothing even though it's not my fault. And I'm just done with hating myself, I'm done.
I was reading this one blog today. It belongs to a Finnish girl so cute that's she's not annoying at all. There's a line there, line drawn to the water :D When you're cute enough, you're not annoyingly perfect - even though you really are, but it all just gets covered with cuteness :DDD But if you're even a tiniest bit not that cute, you are annoying as hell xD
So, this girl isn't annoying. She's super cute and she has a style I look up to - and that's rare. She wrote stories to this website called Lafi, but she hasn't done that in a while now. I was reading that, and there she said that she's got no worries for this year - except getting in some school.
It felt sort of wrong, but I became very happy - ridiculously happy about that... Is it wrong? I wasn't being malicious or anything, I was just happy for not being the only one :3 And that even the best of us have these same problems.
Then, the meme~
Day 6: Favourite song (soundtrack or performed onscreen)
Well, this is easy for me. There are three song I really love. The two of those are Pippin's song in Minas Tirith and then the Nazgûl theme - no idea what's it's name :D But before those two comes one song. And I don't know what is the name of this song either, but my all time favourite LotR song is the one that plays everytime Gandalf calls up the eagles, and in the Two Towers when the Ents march into war against Isengard. It's so beautiful and always gives me chills.
Okay, now I'll stop this. Longest entry in a while :D
Ja sinulle samalle ihmiselle kysymys: jos sun porukat lupaa maksaa sulle sen matkan espanjaan, niin jos mun porukat suostus auttaa mua kans, niin jos mä lähden sun kanssa? Huhti-toukokuussa esim, tai kesällä, eipä näytä noita töitäkään tulevan.
I'm reading this blog, and hearing things, and I'm thinking too much... I need to get some place warm. I want to go on a vacation with friends... I get very anxious about this every time I remember to think about it. It's not nice at all... And I shouldn't be thinking anything else but German for these last three days at least...
I haven't said this to anyone yet, but I hate this country right now. I don't have any opinions that are good to be public, I just shut my mouth about this, but of course I didn't get any job for the summer. It's not my fault. I just hate the fact that I know my parent are gonna be pissed off. What the hell can I do? And I get so fucking angry to hear someone say "I just got an invite to three job interviews!!!" Like... I wanna just kill those people right now. Why do they get three and others get nothing? Hypin seinille täällä taas.
And then the school. I'm practically done with my high school But I don't wanna go to school next Fall. I don't feel like studying at this point of my life. I just want to get a job and do things.
BUT NO! WHAT THE FUCK! WHY IS EVERYTHING SO FUCKING HARD IN THIS COUNTRY IF YOU'RE NOT A PERFECT STUDENT?
Of course my friends get into schools rigth away, because they're all perfect and elitists. But I don't. And it's hard, to not be able to do anything. No school, no job... On one hand I don't mind about it, it would be great to have time for myself for a while, and not stress about something all the time. But on the other hand, I know that after a month or two I would start to hate myself for doing nothing even though it's not my fault. And I'm just done with hating myself, I'm done.
I was reading this one blog today. It belongs to a Finnish girl so cute that's she's not annoying at all. There's a line there, line drawn to the water :D When you're cute enough, you're not annoyingly perfect - even though you really are, but it all just gets covered with cuteness :DDD But if you're even a tiniest bit not that cute, you are annoying as hell xD
So, this girl isn't annoying. She's super cute and she has a style I look up to - and that's rare. She wrote stories to this website called Lafi, but she hasn't done that in a while now. I was reading that, and there she said that she's got no worries for this year - except getting in some school.
It felt sort of wrong, but I became very happy - ridiculously happy about that... Is it wrong? I wasn't being malicious or anything, I was just happy for not being the only one :3 And that even the best of us have these same problems.
Then, the meme~
Day 6: Favourite song (soundtrack or performed onscreen)
Well, this is easy for me. There are three song I really love. The two of those are Pippin's song in Minas Tirith and then the Nazgûl theme - no idea what's it's name :D But before those two comes one song. And I don't know what is the name of this song either, but my all time favourite LotR song is the one that plays everytime Gandalf calls up the eagles, and in the Two Towers when the Ents march into war against Isengard. It's so beautiful and always gives me chills.
Okay, now I'll stop this. Longest entry in a while :D