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[tofano]

What are you supposed to do when hearing from that person is the happiest part of your day but at the same time its the most heartbreaking part of your day? You know your place, you've accepted it but it still kills you to know they've moved on, they've felt another touch, another love and you're standing there, with nothing. For whatever damn reason, you just can't let go even though everything you ever rememeber drives you to tears. You try to be hopeful and look to what can be better happier times if you let them but nothing seems to go right. Life keeps throwing shit at you so you keep creating more shit for yourself. Everything is going exactly the way you knew it would from the very beginning. Every negative thought, every doubt you've ever had is true. But you still hold on. What is it about love that makes us become such idiots? You're an idiot if you fall in love, an idiot while the love seems strong, and an idiot if you stay in love. Still, love should never be something you regret, its something you learn from, you take with you and grow stronger from. I'm hoping that the more it hurts, that just means the stronger i'll be when I'm over it. And with that I give my apology, to anyone who ever loved me, who i ever hurt or neglected in any way, who deserved better, i'm sorry...

guess i just needed to vent, feels good to write shit down again. and this was just a taste. anywho, i'm outtie 5000, take it sleazy kids

-tiff-