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So every time I try to have a serious conversation with my mother, she always gets distracted. By the TV... or she calls someone else on her cell phone mid-conversation. Right when I'm trying to discuss something. If something I say reminds her of what she forgot to tell someone else, she'll just call them. And then not understand why I walk away in disappointment.
So here I am, telling my mother that I'm not sure that WAC is the best fit, that I'm missing the performance aspects of N.American/European/African dance and musical theatre. Telling her that my english program is one of the best in the world, and there she goes, calling grandma to gossip about a cousin who my great aunt was blabbing about. Saying he went to a more prestigious school than he actualy does to boost her grandchildren in everyone else's eyes and bring me down from the pedestal people put me on because of the whole thing... and thus forgets that I'm talking to her about something important that I can't really figure out on my own, because guess what, I dn't want to be in school for the rest of my life, I want to make something of myself even if I do want to learn as much as possible in this life... but she won't just stop and really listen.
And it bugs me.
So here I am, telling my mother that I'm not sure that WAC is the best fit, that I'm missing the performance aspects of N.American/European/African dance and musical theatre. Telling her that my english program is one of the best in the world, and there she goes, calling grandma to gossip about a cousin who my great aunt was blabbing about. Saying he went to a more prestigious school than he actualy does to boost her grandchildren in everyone else's eyes and bring me down from the pedestal people put me on because of the whole thing... and thus forgets that I'm talking to her about something important that I can't really figure out on my own, because guess what, I dn't want to be in school for the rest of my life, I want to make something of myself even if I do want to learn as much as possible in this life... but she won't just stop and really listen.
And it bugs me.