"..and youre so guilty its disgusting.."
alright well i havent wrote in this for awhile. nothing interesting has been happening.
ive been thinking a lot about my life. and whats goin on. and im not to sure. but nothing really good has been up. i mean im wayyyy behind in school, ive lost some of my best friends, im slowly losing some other ones... i dont have much faith in God anymore, my moms been having nerve problems, my sisters are sick, one which went to the hospital all day yesterday... nothing is really good right now.
i wish everything was different... but i guess ive put myself here, and i have to just deal with it all.
whatever im soooo negative lately. but i cant help it. i try to be positive, but its just hard in my circumstances.
ive been losing a ton of sleep. i just stay up all night every night worried... about everything. i think i should get some nerve pills or something. maybe to help me sleep. i dont know.
i need a job and some hobbies. a job would be good enough at the moment, but i pretty much have to wait till im 16, which is next month, but thats too long. i need one now. maybe i wont worry so much about things, ill be focused on work. i dont know it might make me worry more. i dont know. i just really need to focus on my school and stuff.
and theres a really bad problem im trying to cope with. but i cant not think about it. but when i do it makes me sick. this world is crap.
Quote for the day: "everyone here.. hates everyone here for doing just like they do.
and it's best if we all keep this quiet instead. and I couldn't tell why everyone here was doing me like they do, but I'm sorry now, and I don't know how to get it back to good.."
.sherri.
ive been thinking a lot about my life. and whats goin on. and im not to sure. but nothing really good has been up. i mean im wayyyy behind in school, ive lost some of my best friends, im slowly losing some other ones... i dont have much faith in God anymore, my moms been having nerve problems, my sisters are sick, one which went to the hospital all day yesterday... nothing is really good right now.
i wish everything was different... but i guess ive put myself here, and i have to just deal with it all.
whatever im soooo negative lately. but i cant help it. i try to be positive, but its just hard in my circumstances.
ive been losing a ton of sleep. i just stay up all night every night worried... about everything. i think i should get some nerve pills or something. maybe to help me sleep. i dont know.
i need a job and some hobbies. a job would be good enough at the moment, but i pretty much have to wait till im 16, which is next month, but thats too long. i need one now. maybe i wont worry so much about things, ill be focused on work. i dont know it might make me worry more. i dont know. i just really need to focus on my school and stuff.
and theres a really bad problem im trying to cope with. but i cant not think about it. but when i do it makes me sick. this world is crap.
Quote for the day: "everyone here.. hates everyone here for doing just like they do.
and it's best if we all keep this quiet instead. and I couldn't tell why everyone here was doing me like they do, but I'm sorry now, and I don't know how to get it back to good.."
.sherri.