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I almost feel like ishould be shot on site today1 Can't really explain myself at the moment! I stopped doing the "stuff" and I feel the mental lag! It's odd though I know I'm loved but almost feel..i don't know useless...like I'm just a pain in his balls like a ingrown hair! maybe more like i don't know.. I feel like I miss my family yes but it's not that..i need to KNOW I'm loved and cared for! I guess I just don't really feel special or something!