it will never be my turn.
it will never be my turn to be happy. never.
Dr. Miller's last SNU concert was tonight. it was so good. and it was...so depressing. people cried. i cried. i'm going to miss him so much. :/
i have well over 200 friends at this school. and yet. i'm so lonely.
a part of me wants to go back to St. Thomas, where I never felt lonely.
another part of me wants to go to San Diego State or Point Loma...and be by all the people I love of Cali.
and yet there is another part of me that wants to go to South Carolina, and start over for a 2nd time. Be at a place where noone knows who I am. And where I can just not make any friends, and therefore not be upset when I am alone...bcuz it will be my choice.
and than a great part just wants to stay here.
i hate life.
Dr. Miller's last SNU concert was tonight. it was so good. and it was...so depressing. people cried. i cried. i'm going to miss him so much. :/
i have well over 200 friends at this school. and yet. i'm so lonely.
a part of me wants to go back to St. Thomas, where I never felt lonely.
another part of me wants to go to San Diego State or Point Loma...and be by all the people I love of Cali.
and yet there is another part of me that wants to go to South Carolina, and start over for a 2nd time. Be at a place where noone knows who I am. And where I can just not make any friends, and therefore not be upset when I am alone...bcuz it will be my choice.
and than a great part just wants to stay here.
i hate life.