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This week I'm really going to make an effort to do things that satisfy me and make me feel proud. I always set goals for myself and then give up on them a few days into the week. Reading for some reason has been my breaking point...I cannot keep up with it! Jeff keeps being gone from sunday night to thursday night, and the weekends just fly by. I feel like I'm slowly losing my personality because the people here are so unfriendly and judgemental. I'm really missing the personality that seems to be in the northwest.
For those of you who don't know, I'm considering going to school in Portland at the Le Cordon Bleu. Although lately i've been doubting my passion, because it doesnt offer great pay and the hours are going to be really hard on me. I dont know!! I might just give up and go to school to become a hotel manager or something, its really confusing. the concept of having more money seems to tempting to me right now, especially since I'm not sure if doing pastries is what I really want anyways. ughh..I just want to be 10 years in the future, have made my decision and be happy. Jeff and I are going to check Portland out in May for housing possibilities, look at the school and I want him to start thinking about jobs too, because he's never been there. I can't decide if dealing with the rain is something that's going to bother me or not...maybe I changed? Ugh I guess for now I will just focus on school and try not to think about missing Jeff so much. I feel like I missed out on the whole "stupid drunken college experience". I dont know if that's a good thing or a bad thing, and in the big picture it doesnt seem all that important to me- jsut something I've thought about.
Also, Im having the absolute HARDEST time getting a job. I want to work at a hotel, and no one will help me get started by hiring me even though I have no hotel experience. Why even interview me if you know you arent going to hire someone without them having previos experience. No one has called me back yet, and this weekend was basically a wash as far as applying went because I was having so much fun with Jeff that I forgot about it. Tuesday though, I'm getting back on it....so frustrating. I want to work somewhere! I want to stay there for more than 6 months, and actually like it! I swear I'm not picky, my last two employers have been absolute freaks.....
For those of you who don't know, I'm considering going to school in Portland at the Le Cordon Bleu. Although lately i've been doubting my passion, because it doesnt offer great pay and the hours are going to be really hard on me. I dont know!! I might just give up and go to school to become a hotel manager or something, its really confusing. the concept of having more money seems to tempting to me right now, especially since I'm not sure if doing pastries is what I really want anyways. ughh..I just want to be 10 years in the future, have made my decision and be happy. Jeff and I are going to check Portland out in May for housing possibilities, look at the school and I want him to start thinking about jobs too, because he's never been there. I can't decide if dealing with the rain is something that's going to bother me or not...maybe I changed? Ugh I guess for now I will just focus on school and try not to think about missing Jeff so much. I feel like I missed out on the whole "stupid drunken college experience". I dont know if that's a good thing or a bad thing, and in the big picture it doesnt seem all that important to me- jsut something I've thought about.
Also, Im having the absolute HARDEST time getting a job. I want to work at a hotel, and no one will help me get started by hiring me even though I have no hotel experience. Why even interview me if you know you arent going to hire someone without them having previos experience. No one has called me back yet, and this weekend was basically a wash as far as applying went because I was having so much fun with Jeff that I forgot about it. Tuesday though, I'm getting back on it....so frustrating. I want to work somewhere! I want to stay there for more than 6 months, and actually like it! I swear I'm not picky, my last two employers have been absolute freaks.....