Deep thoughts
Yeah, it's late at night, and what the hell, time for a real, actual, honest to goodness post.
What about? How about the fact I am bored. Bored with pretty much everything. I look back, and I remember I used to do a whole hell of a lot. Between AOV and Anime Cons, and just hanging with friends, I would almost always be gone every weekend. Now, don't get me wrong, some of that I don't miss. I miss the fun times in AOV, but let's face it, by the end of my time in there, I was kinda resentful. I miss doing the con thing, but, I am so out of the loop with Anime that it ain't even funny. Hell, even when I did go, I barely watched much anime. But, now, I have not seen anything in a long ass time. I do miss just doing random shit with friends, but everyone is so far away.
I have been pinching pennies so damn long that it has become second nature. I worry about spending money on stupid shit like gas and the like. Honestly, if I go to the mall and buy a couple DVD's, I feel guilty. Which makes me pissed, I make enough money to afford simple stuff, and really, I have few bills (I paid most of them off.)
To go along with that, I have been feeling incredibly...lonely. No other real way to put it, I am just lonely. I have come to the conclusion I have been alone for far too damn long, and I want more.
Ahh, well. I have to improve my own life. I always believe there is only 1 person that will always help you, and that's yourself. I should get off my lazy ass and do something about all of this. I have alway procrastinated on shit like this, but, really, I should just do stuff.
Oh well, this was a depressing post.
What about? How about the fact I am bored. Bored with pretty much everything. I look back, and I remember I used to do a whole hell of a lot. Between AOV and Anime Cons, and just hanging with friends, I would almost always be gone every weekend. Now, don't get me wrong, some of that I don't miss. I miss the fun times in AOV, but let's face it, by the end of my time in there, I was kinda resentful. I miss doing the con thing, but, I am so out of the loop with Anime that it ain't even funny. Hell, even when I did go, I barely watched much anime. But, now, I have not seen anything in a long ass time. I do miss just doing random shit with friends, but everyone is so far away.
I have been pinching pennies so damn long that it has become second nature. I worry about spending money on stupid shit like gas and the like. Honestly, if I go to the mall and buy a couple DVD's, I feel guilty. Which makes me pissed, I make enough money to afford simple stuff, and really, I have few bills (I paid most of them off.)
To go along with that, I have been feeling incredibly...lonely. No other real way to put it, I am just lonely. I have come to the conclusion I have been alone for far too damn long, and I want more.
Ahh, well. I have to improve my own life. I always believe there is only 1 person that will always help you, and that's yourself. I should get off my lazy ass and do something about all of this. I have alway procrastinated on shit like this, but, really, I should just do stuff.
Oh well, this was a depressing post.