wooden floors, concrete unfinished walls.
I went to the Museum of Contemporary Photography yesterday.. or the day before. It was a Shanghai exhibition. Some of it was horrible. There was a second life community featured... really. And there was some photography that was just dismissible for me.
But... There were a few that were really striking, a model of a house that I saw a thousand times all in varying stages of demolition, and one picture that made me miss China.
One of the pictures is a woman standing in her bedroom. The building has the same layout as my ex-grandmothers house, as least it seems to from what i was able to piece together of the photographs. She is standing in front of a window that is blasting in light, and so concealing her identity. This lets me imagine it is Lao Ma and I remember that she had birds in her home, I remember that she had recently caught a raven and it seemed uncomfortable in the cage. It seemed to be bewildered, unable to take flight he was now doomed to a life in a black steel cage.
I was really caught in a moment up there. Staring at pictures of a place I missed but was probably no longer welcome.
But... There were a few that were really striking, a model of a house that I saw a thousand times all in varying stages of demolition, and one picture that made me miss China.
One of the pictures is a woman standing in her bedroom. The building has the same layout as my ex-grandmothers house, as least it seems to from what i was able to piece together of the photographs. She is standing in front of a window that is blasting in light, and so concealing her identity. This lets me imagine it is Lao Ma and I remember that she had birds in her home, I remember that she had recently caught a raven and it seemed uncomfortable in the cage. It seemed to be bewildered, unable to take flight he was now doomed to a life in a black steel cage.
I was really caught in a moment up there. Staring at pictures of a place I missed but was probably no longer welcome.