I'm in the mood for whiney music
So down that desolate road I go.
The only road I know.
The good thing is, there is an end.
The bad thing is, I don't know where it stops.
Being depressed is always easy, it's coping with it and learning to change it that is hard. I guess I'm just an emo kid. Wierd huh? Emo as in emotional, not emo as in genre of music. I think that I let my emotions get the best of me. Do I really though, what is it that makes me do the things I do.
Why does it never end?
I suppose my life hasn't gone exactly the way I pictured it to go. In fact, I KNOW my life has gone the exact opposite of where I once wanted to be. It's not that I'm not happy. Don't get me wrong, I'm not depressed and moody all the time, but I wish I had done things a bit differently.
I think I really take my parents for granted. Today, Jake and Colin pointed out, "Hey, your parents are really cool. They hardly freak out when shit happens to you." This is completely true. Sure with everyone there is the initial reaction of you fucked up now get reemed a new asshole with lectures, but after that, everything brushes off rather easily. I hope one day, I can be that good with my kids.
So.
I have nothing more to say really.
You know what I miss. It's really stupid, but I miss talking at like 1 AM with my girlfriend(who conviently doesn't exist at all right now). I miss having someone there to comfort you no matter what. I know people that can do that for me, or at least at one point I thought I knew someone. Those people are not what I need though. I want someone to come to me and not care that, I flunked a test, or missed a homework assignment, or got a ticket or spent too much money, or didn't buy a lighter or anything. I don't have a person like that.
I'm tired, I'm going to bed.
The only road I know.
The good thing is, there is an end.
The bad thing is, I don't know where it stops.
Being depressed is always easy, it's coping with it and learning to change it that is hard. I guess I'm just an emo kid. Wierd huh? Emo as in emotional, not emo as in genre of music. I think that I let my emotions get the best of me. Do I really though, what is it that makes me do the things I do.
Why does it never end?
I suppose my life hasn't gone exactly the way I pictured it to go. In fact, I KNOW my life has gone the exact opposite of where I once wanted to be. It's not that I'm not happy. Don't get me wrong, I'm not depressed and moody all the time, but I wish I had done things a bit differently.
I think I really take my parents for granted. Today, Jake and Colin pointed out, "Hey, your parents are really cool. They hardly freak out when shit happens to you." This is completely true. Sure with everyone there is the initial reaction of you fucked up now get reemed a new asshole with lectures, but after that, everything brushes off rather easily. I hope one day, I can be that good with my kids.
So.
I have nothing more to say really.
You know what I miss. It's really stupid, but I miss talking at like 1 AM with my girlfriend(who conviently doesn't exist at all right now). I miss having someone there to comfort you no matter what. I know people that can do that for me, or at least at one point I thought I knew someone. Those people are not what I need though. I want someone to come to me and not care that, I flunked a test, or missed a homework assignment, or got a ticket or spent too much money, or didn't buy a lighter or anything. I don't have a person like that.
I'm tired, I'm going to bed.