I Have Explainable Anger
What the fuck is wrong with me! I'm so pissed off, and its all over little shit that doesnt really matter but i cant get over it. I seriously HAVE NO IDEA how people can go and get with people they have NO feelings for! Being intimate with someone is not taken seriously enough in my opinion.. Don't these people have emotions?!? If they do.. why doesnt it hurt that they have shared something with someone and neither care about eachother? I just dont get it! ALSO what is with breaking peoples hearts!Why must we all hurt others intentionally.. where do you get off on making someone else sad!? I hate hurting people for no reason or just to be fucken trendy! Gives me the fucken shits! Christmas is soon.. im so over it. Target raped xmas for me...
I have to work NINE hours on the door tomorrow Bludge you think? You try having everyone in that shop hate you for NINE hours! I'm serious.. everyone hates the door girl. I'm annoying coz i have to check ALL your bags because it IS my JOB. I Have to deal with pissed off customers because
- We have NO trolleys left and/or
- Staff are to busy to help you and/or
- You couldnt find what you wanted and/or
- We are sold out or even better never even had what you wanted!
Working at Target on the door is shit, I have never had so much of a stressful job. I have cried 3 times due to things customers have said and done to me. Managers speak to you like shit because they are all arseholes. You have to do everyones elses jobs as well as your own because you know Door is such a bludge. GRRRRR!
I think im just a tad tired, i had like three hours sleep due to people getting with eachother in my room and a guy being a fucken slut... and the girl being suckh an easy pushover. Had photo's developed today i wish i had a scanner to show you all them. They are cool. I miss Louise, i wish she would come back from Jakarta... i wish i could talk to her on the phone she is like my lifeline. Other than that - Christmas is going to suck.. I NEED TO MOVE TO BRISBANE ! I just want to move to brisbane to be closer to ben. It kills me having him so far away. I am so jealous of ppl that get to see him everyday... Everyday away from him and get sadder and sadder and i just get so down. Its so annoying..Im not going to get into fucking uni either. QTAC have sent me some shit saying that the uni wont release my marks because of unpaid fee's.. I HAVE NO FUCKING UNPAID FEE'S! If i did, shouldn't i have heard about them by now!???? FUCK! oh well i dont know - i think its bed time before i slash my wrists or something. Night.