i think im going crazy

Sep 01, 2003 23:30

This is so rediculous..i cant talk to anyone about it though. Im not complaining..there is something wrong with me. i cant stop crying. i cant stop thinking. i cant stop hurting. i cant help it. im getting worse. im going to go to bed in a minute otherwise ill just sit here crying all night while boys talk about games, their dicks, their computers, card games, music, whatever. Yeah louise is my friend but geez, i said i didnt want to talk about it. and she forced it, and now she is asleep worrying about uni and geoff.. and because of the conversation we just had about me being wrong and her being right, i feel like crap. I am going crazy. this is so lame and it even sounds lame nut just so you get a picture of how i feel at the moment the other day i was laying on my bed looking out the window, and i was trying to think who would carry my coffin out if i died. Would matt or daryn..micka would..i dont even have enough guys friends to carry my coffin out of the church. But really wouldnt it be great to not have to deal with all this shit from everyone. My mum.. louise... ben..my mums friends...plain stranger who ask what im doing even.. i just hate this in between time where i have no life. i like it and thats why i hate it. i cant wait to go back to uni and get my self on track.. i want to move to brisbane to get a job. I just want to get out of the coast.
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