shit man
ok so today... i ruined my new shirt by getting ink all over it at work and had to work with just my jacket on cause i tried to clean my shirt and then it was all wet.... two words... white trash. so ive been thinking lately and this is for me to come back to and read again so i dont forget all of it ... so read on if you want but its NOT directed at anyone in particular.
if youre my friend now... thank you and i love you ... if not, then you never were. i ran into an old friend/newly turned enemy and was ignored and they shook their head at me.... good because i shake my head at you every time you fuck some slut.
i came home and my mom was up and i asked her why... she said he has a chicken in the oven ... at 2 fucking am?? hmm sounds like a good excuse to me, no. i think she was pissed because today was her birthday and i didnt spend it with her. yes im a fucking bitch of a daughter. i hate birthdays/holidays. i can never decide where im supposed to be.
ive also decided that i hate arguing and shit talking and gossip and making a big deal out of silly things. i am so tired. actually all i want to do is move away. honestly im thinking about starting all over its what would be best. then and only then will i be able to be myself.
i lead a double life. my home life and then my real life. im a nice person by nature and i dont yell at strangers and im not a bitch to people who are mean to me. its not really a good thing but its who i am. if i am mean then is sure as hell is for a reason. i need to just accept this and not try to change it
i now live for myself, however i will not become selfish.
i do not care about money and will never be obsessed with it
i will now stop feeling sorry for myself ... because everything that goes wrong is my own fault and ive got it fucking easy compared to lots of other people, even if my family is mormon.
i fucking love todd spoth. nothing can change this and he is what i want ... nothing else.
if youre my friend now... thank you and i love you ... if not, then you never were. i ran into an old friend/newly turned enemy and was ignored and they shook their head at me.... good because i shake my head at you every time you fuck some slut.
i came home and my mom was up and i asked her why... she said he has a chicken in the oven ... at 2 fucking am?? hmm sounds like a good excuse to me, no. i think she was pissed because today was her birthday and i didnt spend it with her. yes im a fucking bitch of a daughter. i hate birthdays/holidays. i can never decide where im supposed to be.
ive also decided that i hate arguing and shit talking and gossip and making a big deal out of silly things. i am so tired. actually all i want to do is move away. honestly im thinking about starting all over its what would be best. then and only then will i be able to be myself.
i lead a double life. my home life and then my real life. im a nice person by nature and i dont yell at strangers and im not a bitch to people who are mean to me. its not really a good thing but its who i am. if i am mean then is sure as hell is for a reason. i need to just accept this and not try to change it
i now live for myself, however i will not become selfish.
i do not care about money and will never be obsessed with it
i will now stop feeling sorry for myself ... because everything that goes wrong is my own fault and ive got it fucking easy compared to lots of other people, even if my family is mormon.
i fucking love todd spoth. nothing can change this and he is what i want ... nothing else.