I feel so hallow right now, and it doesn't have anything to do with halloween.

[todayisgood]

There are times where I feel like I forget what makes me happy. It's during these times that I get scared about losing myself or a part of myself. So I force myself to think about some little things that make me happy - in an effort to hopefully restart the fire that usually burns inside of me. So here's the list:

-sleeping in my underwear
-drinking water
-a good honest laugh and someone to laugh with me
-the bridge in Old Town
-songs with lyrics that i can relate to, but most specifically, lyrics that motivate me
-good pad thai. or even bad pad thai. seriously.
-loud music/lots of people/sunshine, i.e. the quad on Mon/Wed/Fri
-not being the one to always make the first move, but having the ability to do so
-clothes that fit me really well
-the feeling i get when i know i've done well academically
-my family
-people that want to talk about ME, in addition to them
-dreams that make me feel good
-beans and weenies

It's a short list, because those are what came to me immediately. I have to work towards achieving these. I'm tired of feeling listless and empty, and I hate the fact that I've so easily given the "happy" part of myself away. I want it back, but I'm just not sure how to get it.... It'll come though.

Wish me luck.