The internet isnt as fun as it used to be?
I kindof think that maybe thats true.... maybe thats because its summer?
Besides that, I have this weird sickness/sadness/uneasyness I typically get at the end of a schoolyear when its time to MOVE OUT of somewhere. I really, really, really do not like doing this.
Since yesterday Ive sortof just been wandering around thinking "should I be packing?" , "should I be cleaning?" , "should i be writing my paper?" , "is there anything in germany that I still want to do, that I should just go out and do right now??" .
I am, in fact, so overwhelemed by all the things i need to take care of before leaving that I actually went to my crediting appointment with my director today (an entire day earlier than it was supposed to be). It, however, really SHOULDNT be that overwhelming because I dont have THAT much to do, aber auf jedenfall im overwhelmed.
Ive recently come to terms with my extreme crush for my roomate tobi. its been there all along, I suppose .... ?
Last night i hung out with australians I love and they sang the australian national anthem as we walked down the street. I also waded in the fountain with a beloved australian I had to unfortunately say goodbye to yesterday. This also made me uneasy.
I think that I know what it is. I hate changes that I can't control. Yeah, duh. People moving out really bothers me -- I hated being an RA and then watching everyone leave and being forced to stay there in the emptyness. Same with here ---- once I take the stuff down off my walls I start to panic. I literally feel like like, sick feeling in my whole body and I just HATE it.
I want a home :-(
Im going to miss germany so much. I might cry.
Besides that, I have this weird sickness/sadness/uneasyness I typically get at the end of a schoolyear when its time to MOVE OUT of somewhere. I really, really, really do not like doing this.
Since yesterday Ive sortof just been wandering around thinking "should I be packing?" , "should I be cleaning?" , "should i be writing my paper?" , "is there anything in germany that I still want to do, that I should just go out and do right now??" .
I am, in fact, so overwhelemed by all the things i need to take care of before leaving that I actually went to my crediting appointment with my director today (an entire day earlier than it was supposed to be). It, however, really SHOULDNT be that overwhelming because I dont have THAT much to do, aber auf jedenfall im overwhelmed.
Ive recently come to terms with my extreme crush for my roomate tobi. its been there all along, I suppose .... ?
Last night i hung out with australians I love and they sang the australian national anthem as we walked down the street. I also waded in the fountain with a beloved australian I had to unfortunately say goodbye to yesterday. This also made me uneasy.
I think that I know what it is. I hate changes that I can't control. Yeah, duh. People moving out really bothers me -- I hated being an RA and then watching everyone leave and being forced to stay there in the emptyness. Same with here ---- once I take the stuff down off my walls I start to panic. I literally feel like like, sick feeling in my whole body and I just HATE it.
I want a home :-(
Im going to miss germany so much. I might cry.