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Wow so this is the beginning to another shitty year. Cheers to 2007, its already sucked more than 2006 which I thought was impossible but I guess not. Everything has gone to shit in my life.. never been this bad but Im sure it can get worse. Usually I have at least one good thing left standing but not this time. I feel like fucking hell which Im sure Ill be there shortly.. I used to have so much faith in God. Not so much anymore.. He said He would never put me through more than I can handle and here I am.. this is more than I can handle.. Where are you God?? I went to church last weekend, I read the bible, I've been praying. There are alot of things I've done wrong but isnt that what forgivness is? Im being punishing severly.. what about mercy? Im just so confused. I dont know what to do nor do I have anything to do. Ha all my "friends" are at Daves.. fuckin assholes. Not one of em even called me... fucked up situation. Dave should have been the one to call but I guess I shouldnt exspect anything good from him. I never say this but I hope he burns in hell. I dropped Ashley off over there.. not that we are great friends anymore anyway but I would never get out of her car and let her leave when she was crying and feeling the worst shes ever felt. I wouldnt do that to anyone. Gosh maybe I exspect to much. The divorce of my parents its turning out horrible. My mother is ridiculous.. I always thought she was a good women but ha nevermind. $1500 dollars a month for child support is bullshit. I dont know anyone who spends $750 on one child per month. Whatever. Im going to bed.. best thing that could happen I guess. What an awesome day off I've had. Lovely.