To choke on you.
Another dispassionate kiss leaves my lips as I struggle to safely secure myself a ride to granville street on a crowded bus to escape this city and the ache it breathes when I cannot stop myself from thinking of the consequences and all of these reactions I don't want to face but have to because she has littered them all in front of me to be tortured by the weather as it pounds onto the city streets that lead me down paths of heartbreak and over and over again I will tailor sentences in my mind only to never say them to ears that may not listen either way and I second guess these wanted decisions only because I'm too weak to deal with the pain of it all again and I want to move on but I'm making excuses, only excuses for these nights when I can't sleep beside her because she isn't the one I want.