lost again
Chelsea broke up with me because she said she needed space. She said she didn't want to go out with Ethan yet because she wants him to see it through with some other girl first.. but then she agreed to let him take her out to dinner! If she does go, Ethan's not going to give the new girl much of a chance.. because he knows Chelsea likes him. This confuses me.. I think she might be avoiding the truth. I wish she would tell me what she really feels, but she says she doesn't know herself.
My sister gave me a Tarot reading last night.. that was comedy. She said "You are chasing after someone who is undecisive about what she wants from life. Her being Libra means she could have hot lovin with Pisces, but after the excitement ends, she wants to find another. She finds pleasure in giving herself to guys totally for a while, then moving to another, and maybe coming back to the first to experience the rush again. She'll try anything once, because she wants to test her limits. She wants to avoid the stresses of the world, but she is good at meeting people and making friends."
Tarot, you badass.
The whole thing sounds like something I'd say to someone about what I feel is happening. She's gone back to Ethan quite a bit, so I've always been paranoid about her talking to him. Even though Tarot is ridiculous, it made me realize that I have to move on. I think they made Tarot cards so that in any order they could perfectly describe every relationship.
Chelsea and I stuck together while we were both having big problems with our families. We both tried to escape as long as possible. She's afraid she won't make it into UF, in which case she'd have to leave me. She's realized she had to make a choice between me, Ethan, or no one. With me, she gets hot Pisces sex and fun times, but no music discussion; with Ethan, she gets fun times, music discussion, and maybe hot sex; with no one, she can get hot Pisces sex, fun times, music discussion, and freedom. I think she might pick Ethan though, because she says she's sure he will make her feel better than she has ever felt with him, at least for a while. I guess it's obvious that if I wanted her back, I would have to wait for her to pick me over Ethan. I think that by her basically moving in with me and spending all her waking hours with me has made her think I was suffocating her.. but I know she would be happier with me if we would just go do things together, get a job together..
I know I just have to give her space for as long as she needs it.. but I wish I had another chance
My sister gave me a Tarot reading last night.. that was comedy. She said "You are chasing after someone who is undecisive about what she wants from life. Her being Libra means she could have hot lovin with Pisces, but after the excitement ends, she wants to find another. She finds pleasure in giving herself to guys totally for a while, then moving to another, and maybe coming back to the first to experience the rush again. She'll try anything once, because she wants to test her limits. She wants to avoid the stresses of the world, but she is good at meeting people and making friends."
Tarot, you badass.
The whole thing sounds like something I'd say to someone about what I feel is happening. She's gone back to Ethan quite a bit, so I've always been paranoid about her talking to him. Even though Tarot is ridiculous, it made me realize that I have to move on. I think they made Tarot cards so that in any order they could perfectly describe every relationship.
Chelsea and I stuck together while we were both having big problems with our families. We both tried to escape as long as possible. She's afraid she won't make it into UF, in which case she'd have to leave me. She's realized she had to make a choice between me, Ethan, or no one. With me, she gets hot Pisces sex and fun times, but no music discussion; with Ethan, she gets fun times, music discussion, and maybe hot sex; with no one, she can get hot Pisces sex, fun times, music discussion, and freedom. I think she might pick Ethan though, because she says she's sure he will make her feel better than she has ever felt with him, at least for a while. I guess it's obvious that if I wanted her back, I would have to wait for her to pick me over Ethan. I think that by her basically moving in with me and spending all her waking hours with me has made her think I was suffocating her.. but I know she would be happier with me if we would just go do things together, get a job together..
I know I just have to give her space for as long as she needs it.. but I wish I had another chance