So i realized
that i still had a livejournal. I'v been good i guess. Back home in Fitchburg and all but i'm already going to move again real soon. So much shit has happened. I've been in and out of love and still in love with someone who i think doesn't even think i exist anymore. we just kind of stopped talking. Idk. I can't help but feel like shit about it. I've tried a few new things. drugs mostly. Stupid shit if you ask me. I totaly stopped doing them though. Thank god. New friends like brandy and erik they introduced me to all that stuff. idk? they're pretty cool. and yeah. wow i just realized that i haven't written in here for soo long and yeah. i've grown up soo much! I got a tattoo. it's kind of really itchy and peely right. I really don't know where my love life is going because i really don't have a guy in mind. well...i sorta do. it's just that i'm going to move soon and all. shit shit shit shit.........yeah i'm kind of really pissed off. So i'm going to own a convienience store with my parents. what a load of shit eh? but yeah. hmmm yep. i really dunno. graduating this year. june 1rst. if i go to oklahoma/missouri before school is over i'll be out in like may or april. graduating with kids i don't know. i think i'm just going to get up and leave. and just totaly forget about massachussetts and about everyone. I'm sorry if that offends people but i really just need to start over again. like i was just born. idk if i can do it. i've already met people that i truely love. not mate love. just friends............shit why is everything soo fucked up right now? and jon, i fucking hate you. our situation makes it seem like i have no reason to hate you but i truely hate your fucking guts. go to hell you fucking asshole. I'm over you. I'm going to go now i guess. i've typed a whole bunch of shit that's been happening. haha omg. yeah.