I'm your best friend and you KNOW that I would never judge you no matter what the true story is (which I still am going to hear, by the way), so you could've at least told me you needed to meet with me in private if you didn't trust this message system. I dont think that you three needed to collaborate to make some lie...
I know you three the best out of everyone in Seireitei... I'm insulted that you would think that I would believe such a terrible liar as an Invisible Hollow that was a 'Freak incident' and you were SO SURE that there would never be another attack.
You even brought up Aizen so I would be distracted and not ask further questions.
I am insulted that you didn't think that I was smart enough to see right through this.
[Private to Hinamori]fearnotdeceitJune 6 2009, 06:56:58 UTC
Kira didn't make me angry. Not that angry.
I... Hinamori, I had a mask and, Ichimaru it may have been, I attacked someone. I didn't want it to happen again -- I refused -- so I... kept it all inside, everything about the mask, the confinement, the trial and everything since. It all came out, all at once, and Kira was simply there.
Abarai followed me to Rukongai, made me work it out and, yes, I broke his arm. We were afraid it might come to another trial, so Abarai suggested concocting the story about the Hollow. There was never intent to hurt or insult you; the lie was to protect me.
[Private to Hitsugaya-kun]tobiume18June 6 2009, 07:05:46 UTC
I just wanted to make sure that you all were safe.
Also? You and Abarai-kun aren't the best of friends and to see you two go out walking one night and then run into a hollow? That was perhaps the most suspicious thing you could've said.
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I also know what it's like to be afraid of yourself and unsure of what you are capable of... I lived that for two years, Hitsugaya-kun. What was worse was how I kept all my fears to myself and was afraid to even tell anyone... that was the biggest mistake that I could've made for I ended up taking my confusion and anger out at the wrong people. I'm still deeply ashamed at how I attacked you... twice.
I'm your best friend and always here for you when you need an ear or even just a quiet place for you to think. Don't run away from yourself... it's very dangerous.
[Private to Hinamori]fearnotdeceitJune 6 2009, 07:18:00 UTC
We're safe, despite my best efforts.
It was... all suspicious. I know that.
I was so afraid of hurting someone that I ended up hurting two people. Badly. Kira is still out of his office. Abarai's arm was broken and shoulder dislocated. You remember the neighbor's house? The little blue place? It's a pile of rubble. And I was capable of all that simply because I was afraid that I might be capable of it.
I ran from myself and got very lost. And I deeply apologize for hurting you in the process.
[Private to Hitsugaya-kun]tobiume18June 7 2009, 20:46:16 UTC
I jut wish you would've told me what happened in the first place and this all could've been avoided.
About what happened to Kira-kun and Abarai-kun... I don't know, Hitsugaya-kun. It seems so unlike you to attack someone like that... and if you ever need to talk, please come to me. You don't even need to say anything... just come over and I can make you tea or something.
Like I said before, don't run away from anyone, yet alone from yourself. You lose all sense of everything.
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I think I had enough of that the past two years and we all learned that it didn't help me at all.
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And you all are terrible liars.
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You even brought up Aizen so I would be distracted and not ask further questions.
I am insulted that you didn't think that I was smart enough to see right through this.
Someone please tell me the truth.
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And by 'brought you to your senses,' does that mean you're the one who broke Abarai-kun's arm?
Hitsugaya-kun... Are you feeling all right?
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I... Hinamori, I had a mask and, Ichimaru it may have been, I attacked someone. I didn't want it to happen again -- I refused -- so I... kept it all inside, everything about the mask, the confinement, the trial and everything since. It all came out, all at once, and Kira was simply there.
Abarai followed me to Rukongai, made me work it out and, yes, I broke his arm. We were afraid it might come to another trial, so Abarai suggested concocting the story about the Hollow. There was never intent to hurt or insult you; the lie was to protect me.
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Also? You and Abarai-kun aren't the best of friends and to see you two go out walking one night and then run into a hollow? That was perhaps the most suspicious thing you could've said.
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I also know what it's like to be afraid of yourself and unsure of what you are capable of... I lived that for two years, Hitsugaya-kun. What was worse was how I kept all my fears to myself and was afraid to even tell anyone... that was the biggest mistake that I could've made for I ended up taking my confusion and anger out at the wrong people. I'm still deeply ashamed at how I attacked you... twice.
I'm your best friend and always here for you when you need an ear or even just a quiet place for you to think. Don't run away from yourself... it's very dangerous.
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It was... all suspicious. I know that.
I was so afraid of hurting someone that I ended up hurting two people. Badly. Kira is still out of his office. Abarai's arm was broken and shoulder dislocated. You remember the neighbor's house? The little blue place? It's a pile of rubble. And I was capable of all that simply because I was afraid that I might be capable of it.
I ran from myself and got very lost. And I deeply apologize for hurting you in the process.
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About what happened to Kira-kun and Abarai-kun... I don't know, Hitsugaya-kun. It seems so unlike you to attack someone like that... and if you ever need to talk, please come to me. You don't even need to say anything... just come over and I can make you tea or something.
Like I said before, don't run away from anyone, yet alone from yourself. You lose all sense of everything.
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I can tell you about it, if you want to know.
I won't, Hinamori. Not anymore.
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