im gloomy
lost my best friend
life is swell
went skiing and the conditions sucked!
im going insane all over again..yay...gotta love insanity..
im pulling out my hair
strung out on coffee and confusion
cant stop the tears
yay
just yay
isnt life peachy keen
154 days since ive felt right....actually 169 (technically)
20 days drug free....and i feel like crap...
i miss her* so much
no one that i care about every sticks around for very long....
its the truth...ive come to terms with it....even though is sucks
randy rhoads was so hot....stupid fucking coke head who killed him...
stupid ozzy for having bronchitis during ozzfest
stupid m franco for leaving me
stupid zeva for saying she will be there, fucking empty promises
stupid me for thinking each time with her is different...so this time i know better...or do i???
stupid parents for having me in the first place
i didnt ask for this....
stupid me for not being thankful to be alive...and stupid me for pushing everyone away that only whats to help...
im just stupid....really fucking STUPID!
and for whoever it is that has been fucking with me lately....you are completely right, i am fat and ugly and worthless.....scarey thought that we actually agree huh? yea...ryan go fuck yourself....you're fat and ugly....
im done...off to bed...only to repeat it all again tomorrow....
JOY!
life is swell
went skiing and the conditions sucked!
im going insane all over again..yay...gotta love insanity..
im pulling out my hair
strung out on coffee and confusion
cant stop the tears
yay
just yay
isnt life peachy keen
154 days since ive felt right....actually 169 (technically)
20 days drug free....and i feel like crap...
i miss her* so much
no one that i care about every sticks around for very long....
its the truth...ive come to terms with it....even though is sucks
randy rhoads was so hot....stupid fucking coke head who killed him...
stupid ozzy for having bronchitis during ozzfest
stupid m franco for leaving me
stupid zeva for saying she will be there, fucking empty promises
stupid me for thinking each time with her is different...so this time i know better...or do i???
stupid parents for having me in the first place
i didnt ask for this....
stupid me for not being thankful to be alive...and stupid me for pushing everyone away that only whats to help...
im just stupid....really fucking STUPID!
and for whoever it is that has been fucking with me lately....you are completely right, i am fat and ugly and worthless.....scarey thought that we actually agree huh? yea...ryan go fuck yourself....you're fat and ugly....
im done...off to bed...only to repeat it all again tomorrow....
JOY!