Yaay!! I'm finally not ill
Yahoo! After all that sickness and the icky DayQuil, I'm finally relatively healthy. Praise the lord. I didn't like being sick all that much, but then again, who does really? Heh, I got yelled at for not updating this very often, so here's my update yo. I guess a lot of shit has been happening with me, mostly with Joe. Basically he's been trying to go out with this girl from his work named Linda. And she and I not really met at his birthday party, where she holed herself up in his computer room and refused to come out for anything. This first really set me off about her. Even if you don't know people at a party, you at least be social with them and at least hang out with the person/people who you know there.
And then he asks her out a few days later, and this really hurts me, because I really think that I love him at this point. So I try and support him, I mean, I'm his best friend, and I do want that to still be strong. And then basically he tells me a few days later that she just ditched him during one of their dates and told him to go away, and then didn't give any sort of proper explaination about why she did that. Alright, now I'm not only sad about her hurting him, I'm pissed off. So I tell him that I love him too much to let her hurt him like that, and I put up what we call the proposition. More or less I told him that if things didn't work out between him and Linda, I wanted him to think of me as a second option. So basically Joe and I started talking on the phone, and he figures that Linda doesn't want to be with him anymore and so we start talking really seriously about going out together.
During our conversation, he starts telling me all these things that he's never told me before about himself, and he's surprised that I not only still like him, but share some of the same things in common. And so basically it got to the point where he was like, 'how do i tell Linda this?' And then we started talking on AIM and he talked on the phone with her. But in the end he ended up with her again. And I just can't stand it. Because I have this really bad feeling that she's only going to either use Joe, or end up hurting him badly in the end. And I don't want that. I want him to be happy, that's why I'm trying to support him and try and at least let him have the chance to attempt to be happy with her.
Now I'm starting to wonder if I'm ever going to have my chance. This is the first guy who's ever even really looked at me and decided that I would be a good person to become friends with, going beyond my unattractive looks. And that's something all in itself that I really love about him. That he likes me as a friend for me, not because I'm physically attractive. But now I have to hear about how he and her are talking about 'dirty' things and stuff like that. And it's really starting to hurt me. But I can't let him know that. I have to be the best friend. I have to be the person he complains to about being f*cked over by girls. But yet, here I am, a girl that actually likes (and maybe loves) him, and he doesn't want to be with me. I dont' get it. He even knows I love him. And not to mention that a lot of people that I know have been trying to clue him in. I just want us to be together, mostly because I know that she is so wrong for him. But I can't tell him that. I have to be the friend, there to listen and nothing more. *sigh*
And then he asks her out a few days later, and this really hurts me, because I really think that I love him at this point. So I try and support him, I mean, I'm his best friend, and I do want that to still be strong. And then basically he tells me a few days later that she just ditched him during one of their dates and told him to go away, and then didn't give any sort of proper explaination about why she did that. Alright, now I'm not only sad about her hurting him, I'm pissed off. So I tell him that I love him too much to let her hurt him like that, and I put up what we call the proposition. More or less I told him that if things didn't work out between him and Linda, I wanted him to think of me as a second option. So basically Joe and I started talking on the phone, and he figures that Linda doesn't want to be with him anymore and so we start talking really seriously about going out together.
During our conversation, he starts telling me all these things that he's never told me before about himself, and he's surprised that I not only still like him, but share some of the same things in common. And so basically it got to the point where he was like, 'how do i tell Linda this?' And then we started talking on AIM and he talked on the phone with her. But in the end he ended up with her again. And I just can't stand it. Because I have this really bad feeling that she's only going to either use Joe, or end up hurting him badly in the end. And I don't want that. I want him to be happy, that's why I'm trying to support him and try and at least let him have the chance to attempt to be happy with her.
Now I'm starting to wonder if I'm ever going to have my chance. This is the first guy who's ever even really looked at me and decided that I would be a good person to become friends with, going beyond my unattractive looks. And that's something all in itself that I really love about him. That he likes me as a friend for me, not because I'm physically attractive. But now I have to hear about how he and her are talking about 'dirty' things and stuff like that. And it's really starting to hurt me. But I can't let him know that. I have to be the best friend. I have to be the person he complains to about being f*cked over by girls. But yet, here I am, a girl that actually likes (and maybe loves) him, and he doesn't want to be with me. I dont' get it. He even knows I love him. And not to mention that a lot of people that I know have been trying to clue him in. I just want us to be together, mostly because I know that she is so wrong for him. But I can't tell him that. I have to be the friend, there to listen and nothing more. *sigh*