A VENT ON LIFE
I am sick of feeling like I have to always have to have a cover over the true me..
I am sick of being myself around a hand full of people because I know if i act the way i want to around people they will think its not the real me or that they think i am just doing it to look cool..
I am sick of thinking of who i am hanging out so that means I can dress like this.. Instead of just dressing like How I want to..
I am sick of always finding myself with people who I findmyself ashame of because how they act in public.. Like how I once when out to eat at my work with friends my ex and she started ACTING LIKE just because i worked there she can throw a huge fit.. and the next day at work I had to say sorry to my boss because I felt so bad..
I am sick of getting a feeling like an Outsider with most of my friends..
I only have four people i can hang out with that i don't feel like an outsider too..
But even with them sometimes I do because two of them are engage and i know they need their space.
I wish I could go back in time and went with people that showed they liked for who I am instead of for others I had to change for..
I wish I could stop myself from doing something stupid that cause me and two friends I really like hanging with but at the same time miss how we use to hang out till then.
I feel when i hang out with them.. Like I am half welcome and the other like they just want me to go.. I wish things were like they were before.
I wish I could just be myself around everyone and not just a hand full..
I wish I could put all engry in my two passions.. Wrestling and Cooking.. yeah I know it sounds stupid... But I wish back when I was younger I it hit me how much I enjoy working with food.
I wish I could get fully Train and show I have what it takes to try to make it somewhat Big at less in Michigan or the indies..
I want to start college...
I want to move the FUCK OUT
I want find that special SOMEONE!
I am sick of being myself around a hand full of people because I know if i act the way i want to around people they will think its not the real me or that they think i am just doing it to look cool..
I am sick of thinking of who i am hanging out so that means I can dress like this.. Instead of just dressing like How I want to..
I am sick of always finding myself with people who I findmyself ashame of because how they act in public.. Like how I once when out to eat at my work with friends my ex and she started ACTING LIKE just because i worked there she can throw a huge fit.. and the next day at work I had to say sorry to my boss because I felt so bad..
I am sick of getting a feeling like an Outsider with most of my friends..
I only have four people i can hang out with that i don't feel like an outsider too..
But even with them sometimes I do because two of them are engage and i know they need their space.
I wish I could go back in time and went with people that showed they liked for who I am instead of for others I had to change for..
I wish I could stop myself from doing something stupid that cause me and two friends I really like hanging with but at the same time miss how we use to hang out till then.
I feel when i hang out with them.. Like I am half welcome and the other like they just want me to go.. I wish things were like they were before.
I wish I could just be myself around everyone and not just a hand full..
I wish I could put all engry in my two passions.. Wrestling and Cooking.. yeah I know it sounds stupid... But I wish back when I was younger I it hit me how much I enjoy working with food.
I wish I could get fully Train and show I have what it takes to try to make it somewhat Big at less in Michigan or the indies..
I want to start college...
I want to move the FUCK OUT
I want find that special SOMEONE!